promise me that

2012-02-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

每人有权利决定他人的幸福，大家都有选择的权利。你做了你的选择那他人呢？

so many things running through my mind.
i guess perhaps it's time to start thinking for myself
wisdom. to be with the right people
i don't know what would happen
but i sort of feel that i've changed.
yes, i have but i don't know where. but one thing i know for sure, that is, i need to learn to say NO.
i should stop worrying about judgement and all
yes. stop. but why am i so afraid.
this has always been a weakness and it gets me upset.
sigh. but i'm sure this will surely be a strength one day.
perhaps i should stop pleasing others and start pleasing myself. yes. i mean pleasing myself.
i guess its a learning process?
maybe its because of my behavior when i was a kid.

Keep holding on.

2012-01-12T18:24:00.001+08:00

SP Open house training and actual days!

19,20, 21, 29,30 dec trainings
4,5,6,7 Jan actual dates!

2011-12-31T22:16:00.003+08:00

Dec 31

It's the last day of 2011
it's just too fast
a year has passed
this year has really been a great year
a great year of abundant blessings, love, joy, peace, faith, grace.
I'm thankful for the 365 days full of love, faith & happiness for me this very year.
I've enjoy spending every single day this very year of 2011
Remember the laughter,
the joy,
the hard work,
and the tears.
And as i reflect on the past year,
also think of the new one to come.
Because most importantly,
this is a time of new beginnings and the celebration of life.
Let me write on a brief summary of what happened
I worked
school started and i dreaded it
now i'm slowly enjoying it
not forgetting all the little litle details of us going out and having fun
how life can be :)
but really, 2011 has been the greatest year i've ever had in my life right now
it has really been a smooth flowing year with not much of major hiccups nor unhappiness
i'm happy ^^
can't be more thankful and grateful for such an awesome year of having the
Sweetest Sunday,
Marvelous Monday,
Tasty Tuesday,
Wonderful Wednesday,
Thankful Thursday,
Friendly Friday,
Successful Saturday.
Been a really memorable, sweet year of fun, love, joy, blessing... and on and on and on :)
just wanna end this post by saying,
as 2012 approach,
i'm thankful for everything i have in my life
Last but not least, 2012 will be a year ever better than this year, full of love, strength and health, we would be even more abundantly blessed, favored, full of grace, love, joy, peace, faith, happiness!
Wishing everyone a blessed 2012! ♥

2011-12-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

Dec 11

lunch at foodcourt near concord hotel
thai food- pineapple rice!
met twin at 313
walked around orchard w twin
at 1st at 313
then later H&M
tried some clothes
then wisma
and takashimaya
twin wanna buy bag for her laptop
after tt had dinner at at tonkatsu ginza bairin :)

2011-11-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

Nov 8

it's tuesday.. class as usual
i had F&B at some place of shatec sch
had awesome food!!!
here are the pics!!

thats all for today ^^

When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. When life is bitter, say thank you and grow.

2011-10-15T15:33:00.001+08:00

"When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. When life is bitter, say thank you and grow."

School holiday is coming to an end.
And very soon, it'll be the end of the year.
How time flies.
Sometimes, too fast. Too fast that sometimes i wish i could slow down my pace and take a look at the things around me.
It's just like a scenario of you sitting in a car and you walking along the streets.
You may be passing by the same place, but it gives you a different exposure to things.
Sitting in a car, you zoom past everything and you hardly have a glimpse of your surroundings.
But if you're walking, your pace is slowed down and you get to enjoy your environment, to appreciate things.
As i look at my school timetable, i wondered to myself.
Wow. what a packed schedule you have.
What happened to the hours of being able to head out and play?
And what more you have an additional diploma plus.
Can you cope?
Well, i hope.
That means i'll have lesser time to go out nor to meet friends.
It's going to be mugging and mugging.

Lets look aside from school for now because it stresses me up.
3 quarter of a year has passed and i guess it has been really fruitful and amazing!
Been a really happy year for now and that things are all on track.
I guess, i've learnt a lot of things this year while working for the starting quarter of the year.
Not forgetting all the days of playing and playing non-stop during holidays.

I think i've spent more time playing out than staying home.
Well, it's also good.
Because at times i really do feel miserable staying home and being condemned by the ones who meant the most to you; family.
But, it's alright. I've learnt my lesson. I've learnt to be strong. To ignore those nasty remarks for they don't deserve my attention.
Neither will you if all that you want is for me to be hurt.
It's just a game. You want to play this game? I'm on.

Just like what happened ytd..
i felt upset. angry. disappointed. not being respected. no privacy.
For the fact that my family took my movie tickets and didn't put the envelop back properly.. its crushed. i give in and tell myself its alright.
Then my mum actually took out the message in the necklace box to read.
I'm not stupid because, i wore the necklace and the message is obviously flipped.
I told myself.. it's alright. Forgive..
And what is worse, is that if you really want to play this game with me, i'll play it on with you.
I can't believe you are such an actor. how pathetic to feel that my mum is being like this.
I really can't believe you asked this question.. "why did u take out the necklace for?"

I'm speechless. Totally speechless. Lost for words. Hold it in. Relax. I don't know what else to say.
My mum?
I associate as.. Someone who shows no respect. Gives no privacy. Act as though she did nothing wrong when she rampaged my things and my brother's things. And place me as the injurer. That i was in the wrong. Mum, you're awesome. Really awesome. You left me speechless.
I feel like giving up at times. But if this is a game, i'm playing it till the end. To see how much more crap you can give me. It surely hurts, but i'm staying strong. For the very fact, you're still my mum.

I'm gonna end this post very soon.
Just want to say,
I'm thankful for the sweet times that i have from the beginning of the year till now.
For the tough times, i'm thankful, it made me learn, it made me grow.
Just like a started this post with this sentence..

"When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. When life is bitter, say thank you and grow."

I'm ending with it too.

2011-10-12T23:32:00.003+08:00

Oct 12

headed out in the morning!
10am at compass point.
met jj, fsj, gerald, kenneth, junde and headed to vivo :)
met joash, weilong and yiliang at vivo.
went timezone.
then headed to sentosa
played games
volleyball then soccer. joked and all
seriously love the times with them!
just have to be yourself withour feeling awkward or anything
5 years of friendship so it's great! :)
then we went to koufu to have lunch then walked around sentosa :)
went to the merlion and took pics but we didn't go up
bought jellybeans from candylicious! :)
there after we walked around and then walked back to vivo :)
stayed a vivo for awhile before leaving the group while they headed on to watch movie
there after headed to orchard centrepoint starbucks to chill.
had dinner :))
then went home :)

It's a beautiful day but he can't see. :(

2011-09-25T15:56:00.003+08:00

Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow.

Challenges are what makes us who we are.
it's has really been an eventful morning and afternoon and i'm really sure that today will be a really great day :)
to be able to see things in a different perspective.
and actually... i see the point of view from my dad and bro right now.
being offered to take diploma-plus was indeed a great feeling but it is the choosing that was a problem
i wanted to take humanitarian affairs while my dad and bro wanted me to take digital media

humanitarian affair is a self actualization goal, i would complete it no matter what.
so why not study digital media and it helps me in my work and then i'm even older, i'll go for courses for humanitarian aid

so, actually in both situations i will not lose out.
and instead, i think take digital media would get me further for my work from the start and that means i'm a step even closer to humanitarian aid.

sometimes i feel like a really willful kid
trying in all sorts of method just to get my way through
but even though i fall on the way, i learn things the better way
but this isn't a really good way to learn..
it's just like saying, only after u commit suicide, then u know what death is..
hahaha, so i guess heed advice but make wise choices.

but one very thing i've learnt as a child, which i guess my parents or siblings would never be able to understand that is,
never never cut off a child's dream by saying this will not bring u future
neither will it be useful to u.
just like in my case, my dream at the end of the day is to go out there, around the world to help people in need
to make this world a better place, to see lives being transformed.

to them, it's trash, its useless.

Even though i may not be able to transform the lives of many
but starting with one is already an accomplishment.
just like the story of a man on the beach.
at night a boy went to the beach because he was unhappy.. he saw the old man bending down and started picking starfish by starfish and throwing them into the sea.
they boy didn't understand why the old man did that.
but just one sentence changed the perspective of the boy
"there may be a lot of starfishes on the beach but each starfish that i've picked up and thrown back into the sea, its life has been transformed"

yes, i may not be able to transform lives of many, and some like the starfishes might have died, but at least u were able to save some of them.
just like this story, my parents will never be able to understand this.
because they always find community work as something useless, a waste of time.
i'm used to it. too used to it. all that i do is to shut my mouth and do these on my own without telling them :)

its a dream that they will never think its great but i myself know how much it means to people out there.
but before i can do all these, i will need to study hard, and to strengthen myself
mentally, emotionally, physically :)
so, i'm persisting for this dream of mine. :)

and well something happened before i'm at 313 starbucks and drinking caramel frappe alone right now
well its just sad.. really sad..
but i've pulled myself back :) i'm stronger now :)
and it's something that i need to learn along the way that is to be strong!

now what was it that happened?

went doby ghaut with darren.

and we were on the way to north south line.
i was just disheartened to see that no one actually is helping the blind man
i teared not because i was traumatized by the closing of train door and it's not the 1st time i'm being banged by the door
and even when i was banged by the door just now, i felt a protection around me and it didn't hurt at all.
what got me crying is being unable to see the blind man safe all the way..
i was really afraid for him just now..
and actually i could see fear in him when getting onto the mrt...
he was like kind of in unrest and trembling..

worried am i, i've grown to let go..
that is sometimes as much as we want to help someone, we may be limited to boundaries and obstruction
but since the blind man is safe on the mrt i guess he would be fine :)
as we were separated from the blind man, all that i was thinking is i hope he gets a seat.. for the mrt is really shaky..
i hope there will be another kind soul to help him after our journey departs from him..

It's really sad to see that in this very world, there very few people out there willing to have any little acts of kindness. Many walking past a blind man PRETEND they CANNOT SEE him when in the BLIND man's world, it is just full of darkness and he is afraid of where his next step would be. Sadly, it's a beautiful day but he cannot see. And yet people who can, take it for granted. :'(

2011-08-25T22:20:00.004+08:00

well been a month since i last posted.
took a look at those birthday photos and i feel so blessed :)
and just wanna give thanks for everything that i have in my life.

Be thankful that you don’t already have everything you desire.
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don’t know something,
for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations,
because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge,
because it will build your strength and character.
Be thankful for your mistakes.
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you’re tired and weary,
because it means you’ve made a difference.
It’s easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfilment comes to those who
are also thankful for the setbacks.

Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles,
and they can become your blessings…

hmm what can i say? im in the mids of my exams right now and school isn't as bad as before.
i'm much closer to my classmates right now :) and yeaps that's good.
haha not that distant nor am i feeling awkward like i used to.
a lot of activities have been happening since the start of this year and i'm thankful for everything.

it's has really been so smooth sailing for me.
so much so that everything feels like a dream :)
i'm just gonna sum up what happened last month till this month with pics that are available :)

Business Presentation with part of my class :)

05!! with the 3 Japanese exchange students :)

Singapore international water week appreciation dinner :)

look who we saw? PHSS teachers!! :) hehe i love PEI HWA!

and my class :) some people missing though

twin and i at the 50th floor of skygarden at the pinnacles :)

Bad things make u realize that u shld be thankful

2011-07-23T14:00:00.003+08:00

I do honestly believe that people enter our lives for a reason. That everyone who we meet, who forms an impression has something to teach us. Everything that happens to us is an experience, and because of that it can never be bad. an experience can only be good because it all serves to shape the person that we are, the person that we become. Having been through an unhappy day yesterday, all that i would like to say is, i'm thankful for yesterday, in making me realize how important that was for me. Without that happening, i guess i would have taken things for granted. So, just be thankful.

2011-07-22T11:47:00.005+08:00

july 21

well, its really been an awesome day today.
with all my crazy friends out there.
really very meaningful :)
can't imagine how life would be like without them man
just felt like saying im feeling really really very blessed and loved from all of my awesome friends.
cool or what?
but all my 3 cakes were from icing room hahah!! XD
blackforest, cupcakes, and apricot cake ^^
splendid surprises from many
first of all i would like to say

To all those who wrote on my wall, thank you and to SP DEPM 05!! thank you for singing the birthday song!

To Teresa Chen thank you for preparing the hidden cupcakes!!! Jocelyn Tan and Darren Chua for the collaboration of the plan for me. the above mentions together with Fairul Izwan, JunJie Chew, and Aricia Rhee for the night! it was totally awesome!!! LOVE ALL OF U GUYS A LOT MAN!!! AM REALLY HAPPY! :)))

‎Charmaine Tan for the crazy time over lunch at then law lesson. Angie Khoo Mun Yee, Francesca Ong, derui, jinyao, corin, Teresa Chen, Jocelyn Tan, Fairul Izwan and the lecturer for staying after class for the celebration haha!!! thank you!!!

THANK YOU EVERYONE!!! IT WAS AN AWESOME DAY FOR ME! REPLAY BUTTON PLEASE!!! XDDDD YOUR WISHES AND PLANS AND WAYS TO CHEAT ME ARE ALL GREATLY APPRECIATED. THE HARDWORK OF COLLABORATION :)))))) THANK YOU AND I LOVE U GUYS LIKE MAD!!! :)

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST TO DARREN, THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR EFFORTS IN THE COLLABORATION WITH JOCELYN IN MAKING THIS A SUCCESS ^^

I REALLY DID NOT EXPECT U TO HAVE SPENT A BOMB ON MY BIRTHDAY AND FOR THAT, I REALLY THANK YOU A LOT :) I SEE YOUR EFFORTS AND ALL THAT I COULD SAY IS I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY THANK YOU!!! SIMPLY CAN'T EXPLAIN. TOTALLY SPEECHLESS.

THANK YOU FOR THE SURPRISES AND I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF TO THE MAX TODAY. AM SIMPLY PLAIN HAPPY :) REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY BUT JUST WANNA SAY THANK YOU TO EVERYONE! :)))

05 + 06 mates haha! :) with our law teacher :)

mr koh! :)

darren and twin :) the ones who all used to work together

my brother and my worker!!

ABE DAY

2011-07-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

ABE DAY!
headed to school at 9am
hmm ABE DAY was fun i guess.
headed for some CCA talk. boring
then after that headed back to keep the things
brought home balloon sculpture :)
something upsetting happened but nvm.. not wanting to talk about it :)
here are the pics

i love my hair over here :)

Darren's birthday!

2011-07-13T22:49:00.002+08:00

sch as per usual
went to vivo after school
met jolene and ken in the shop 1st. :)
Darren came and followed by belinda and ryan
jolene and ken was like deciding to buy a cake for darren
and after ken went out for a talk with darren
jolene and i were doing research on cakes hahaha!!!
Apparently darren saw the web page but luckily he didn't notice what the web page is abt
jolene called me and i went out to answer her call
haha then she called ken coz she needed a lighter
haha and so when ken picked up the shop phone it was jolene
jolene came in with the cake and surprise! Haha darren was like singing to his own belated birthday!! Lol!!
Took photos and ate the black forest chocolate ice cream cake from Swensens
after tt took a walk at vivo coz belinda was looking for iph3 cases
after tt headed to IMM with darren and ken
headed for dinner at a jap restaurant
after darren drove to orchard to drop ken off to concord
then headed home

i sure do miss the times of working in the shop with such great environment of friends :) and not colleagues :)

2011-07-12T13:22:00.002+08:00

hello peeps!!!

been a long long time since i blogged

alright for the past one month i've been missing and ya, nothing much la

schools is still the same

but at least i know my classmates better.

err... results are out and ya, not bad for a start ^^

hmm... what has happened throughout this mth is..

err..

PHSS carnival on 2nd july, did shrinky dink stall..

errr.. helped out at Singapore International Water Week.

so skipped school for 4 days..

now im back. did ushering etc..

and that reminds me, was sick previously too!

err... okay.. shall end here coz idk what to blog already.

bye!

2011-06-14T22:42:00.006+08:00

june 10

bro's graduation

so rush on tt day. woke up late. ate lunch. did my make up in 5 mins..

mad rush. then headed out already.

my dad like gan jiong spider like tt.

gets me on the nerves like seriously. headed home after event and out to buangkok to have dinner. was feeling lazy tt day. but still had to go for dinner..

choir changi cottage

2011-06-14T22:15:00.007+08:00

june 9

choir camp at changi cottage
a picture tells a thousand words.. so i'll let pictures do the talking :D

afternoon- 3pm sky

6pm sky

sun setting

even though the skys may be grey at times, but it will turn blue

2011-06-09T21:50:00.003+08:00

alright back from choir changi cottage! awesome! had a great time.

the view was really awesome. it was real peaceful.

i miss choir so much!!

really enjoyed myself there. love the night :DDDD

alright hmm.. 4 days.. since the last post.

sunday 5th went to meet vudh then headed home to do emd project.

monday 6th went for water week training, then went orchard central with joce :D cold stone!

tues 7th, went suntec :D

and yup! wed- thur ar changi cottage!!! :DDD

reluctant to post the pictures haha!! next time :D

the path the lays before u

2011-06-05T22:32:00.002+08:00

alright i've been missing for 2 weeks already. and my posts haven't been posting about what is happening in my life haha!

well, actually a lot of things have been happening and it has been rather shocking but at the same time happy :DDDDD

well, poly started and actually it isn't really very bad. am slowing getting used to the environment although at times, some thoughts still do make me feel a little miserable.

hmm, im still cca-less but it doesn't really matter.

i've been trying to find out where i belong, what exactly am i looking for in life but then, at this very moment all that i see is a path of foggy mist. not knowing where the path leads to exactly.

even though i may have a rough idea as to how i want things to turn out to be but sometimes, u do have to work very hard for it.

sometimes, things don't turn out the way you want it to, u may be upset, but it doesn't really matter as all these are learning experiences.

perhaps this path that im taking can only take a step at a time. as get nearer, u have a clearer view of what is infront of you which is what u cannot see previously. but if u do look back you would see the same that the path behind is as well misty.

exams are now over and to say, i do not really have much confidence though. but i did do my best :D so im not too worried. i guess?

holidays started but it's going to be way too fast. haha but i'm going to enjoy myself. and i will :DDDDD

梦想

2011-05-22T18:18:00.004+08:00

每个人心里都有个最初的梦想。或许追逐梦想的旅程会很艰难，但我们都曾不去想想在追逐这个梦想的旅途中我们到底走了多遥远。再当我们决定想要放弃的当儿，我们为何又不去想想这一个梦想我们到底花了多少的岁月和精力想要去达成，但却想要在半路返航。所以呢，当我们都已经没有精力再走下去时，不曾想一想自己最初想要达到的梦想。

the start of a new journey, the history of the old.

2011-04-17T00:10:00.002+08:00

Do not think that love in order to be genuine has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.

Apparently, work has sort of ended for me but school has officially started. I've been looking forward to school before it started but right now i'm dreading it. Was it the environment? Was it the people? or Was it just me? or perhaps all of the above?

School isn't what i've expected to be. Poly life. It's so much different compared to sec sch life and now i really look back and it is really when you appreciate your teachers and yr classmates. your schoolmates too. It's really hard for me to get use to what poly life is right now. But it's alright. Time will help me to.

But of course, it takes two hands to clap. So i myself would need to put in the effort to blend in with the rest of the classmates. All that i do hope is to just have friends in the class and someone to approach when u have doubts for any modules.

Yes, indeed. i'm very very in my own world in class and it's hard to reach for me. But time will.. for i'm still observing everyone in the class. those whom may be a hazard to be or may be scheming to just stab u right within. HA! imaginative but i guess that's reality which we may never know. They may just put up a mask in front of you. But once u get near without a shield, there u go.. and too bad!

Oh well, 3 years with this class. Why make myself miserable each day. So i'll just play "pretend" till i really know them. Just get through each and everyday and not step onto their "tails". Be myself and enjoy my classes with my class no matter how bad it can be. 3 years, it'll soon be over in a blink of an eye. Lets not make life miserable. Or preferably just me. Just live each day without regrets and live life to the maximum. Be positive :D

Life is like a cup of coffee.It can be bitter. And it can be sweet, Often both at once.

2011-03-19T18:49:00.005+08:00

We always wait for the right time, not knowing that each time is right, only if we make things happen. We keep looking forward to tomorrow but really, there’s no better time to be happy but now. If not now, when? Happiness can’t be found only at the end of the road. It’s the journey itself that matters.

Seeing one close friend in the group leaving us, it all leads to us being upset and sorrowful. Even though each and everyone of us refuses to admit it nor to even express that thought we have, deep down in our own hearts we know that we can't bear for him to leave us.

But yet again we all do want the best in our friends, don't we? Seeing him leave, we may be unwilling but lets all look on the brighter side of things. He's pursuing his own dreams, his own education. There's nothing we can do to stop him but instead support him all the way.

We all may not meet for now, but we may in the future. If we all built the bridges of friendship and keep in touch, someday we would meet up once more. Sometimes, we all just have to put in our efforts to keep something going and when we don't, it all leads to an end.

A thought stuck me when Vudh left. Why didn't everyone of us cherish the friendship at that moment in time then? And the only way to show that we would be missin' him was through making jokes and talking nonsense so that the whole atmosphere would not be so solemn. weird but it's has always been the way.

The only thing that i can say now is to Smile:) we would all meet up someday, sometime in our lives. ;D Just be Happy :D

sometimes we struggled though a tasteless coffee until the last sip and find sugar lying at the bottom. that's life, always sweetened but sometimes not stirred

2011-03-13T23:47:00.003+08:00

ok i know between february 28 to march 8th i've been missing.

and i really wanna write down each and every moment of my life.

haha sounds a little crazy but ya.. i mean every moment i've enjoyed myself is a day to remember.

alright just a short one for each day that i'm out :D

28 feb

check up at AMK SATA for poly..

superb long queue...

took 6hours15mins

takeaway dinner from S11

a reason, a season or a lifetime

2011-03-11T19:03:00.000+08:00

A Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or
a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you
will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON … It is
usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have
come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you
with guidance and support, to aid you physically,
emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a
godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason
you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an
inconvenient time, this person will say or do something
to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our
desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you
sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON …
Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount
of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things
you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the
person, and put what you have learned to use in all
other relationships and areas of your life. It is said
that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

it's only when u hear the laughter in a person's voice then u know what they're sincere

2011-03-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

the road of life

♥ is not straight;

There is a curve called failure,
a loop called confusion,
speed bumps called friends,
red lights called enemies,
caution lights called family.

you will have flat tires called jobs,
but if you have a spare called determination
and an engine called perseverance,
you will make it to
a place called success

i have been working and i'm really enjoying myself there.
i'm really glad to be enjoying myself.
:) just plain happiness and that is all that i ask for :)
simple, plain happiness is all that i need :D

i'm back :D

2011-02-28T00:10:00.003+08:00

hello ppl. teehee. been a very long time since i blogged here.
i'm in a very great mood now. hahahahaa
hahaha
went out with twin today to help her study.
then headed for dinner with her parents
then headed to her house :D
lovely place at banyan condominium so damn cool
hahaha
then her dad drove me back to vivo
went to meet darren :D
then waited for him to end his work
then after that headed to his house..
waited outside of his unit.
WhILE he went in to take his dad's car keys
haha. talked a lot of crap AND laughed on the car while he was driving me home. haha funny.

oh well. keke!!
i'm actually very happy today.
can't stop smiling ^^

thanks so much to twinnie, her parents as well as darren for the great day! ;D

memories that fade like photographs

2011-02-10T22:39:00.002+08:00

it is said that photographs do bring back memories, it does bring back a little feeling but it'll never be able to fully bring back your total expression at that very moment.

funny but it's so true.

sighs. it has really been a long time since i blogged.

yes, to say i'm really neglecting blogger.

i'm free and doing nothing but i just didn't blog.

i've nothing much to express these days. like seriously, my mind is left blank and i'm speechless to everything.

it's either when i wanted to blog, someone cuts of my momentum and i don't want to blog anymore or, i have the urge but once i log in, i no longer want to do it.

hmm from jan 30 till now lots of things occurred.

2nd feb, went back PHSS for celebration

3rd and 4th went visiting.

7th went out for dim sum.. bad day. i was unwell and threw up =[

8th was reunion with joce, char, teresa, belle, esther, dwayne played uno at gong cha and dinner at kfc, lunch at food court

9th went starbucks with joce and teresa at compass point

and yes, 10 is today.

tmr's heading over to mr chong's house

and sat gonna start work at cube3.

hope all would be well...

i still have the same fear and fear unhappiness. oh well. everything will be fine and i should stop thinking so much.

blah blah blah~~~ i'm shortening everything now because i'm sleepy and i can't think much either.

so...

off i go again :D

all that matters is that we're all together

2011-01-29T22:00:00.002+08:00

My lovely sec 4 classmates!! :D we're at Dwayne's house.

Dwayne and ChernTiong's missing from the pic

haha we wanted to cook but in the end didn't.

had "potluck" but not very much of it too!

it didn't really matter much.

all that matters is that we're with one another..

^^ we merely watched tv and eat together :D

feels so much like a family..

hehe! :D

when all the efforts are put in the the road lies ahead

2011-01-29T20:55:00.004+08:00

alright,

i've been leaving my blog for a week.

not because tt i'm busy or anything

but i just can't find any reason to blog.

but yes, partly because i'm out daily too!

ever since i stopped work everything has been really great and fine.

relaxed i guess.

no unhappiness or what sort of anything.

great even though there's nth exciting.

yes, before i do talk about anything else, i just wanna say,

i've gotten my 1st chocie! :D SP, integrated events and projects management.

love it! haha! i didn't post anything regarding my results too!

BUT, i did pretty well i guess. :D

just kinda disappointed with eng. but all else is fine.

11 for l1r4 and 16 for l1r5

i'm so glad everything was great.

was so afraid tt i would not do well.

but well, everything's really fine and i'm very happy about it. ^^

to say, i've seen the real world enough.

it's really tough and i really prefer to study instead.

it just sucks. money comes fast but it goes fast too!

so yes, i'm gonna save up.

haha, ;D

ok back to studies,

i can't wait for poly to start.

but there's one thing that i'm afraid of..

i wonder how the people there would be like.

=[ i do hope everyone there would be nice.

to say, the sch i'm in, it's school of architecture and built environment

enrollment of 125 :D

haha i hope everyone there is nice hahaha!!

thats what i emphasize one. XD

can't wait for orientation!!! :DDDD i'm sure it's gonna be great!

shall end it off here :D

friendship is a bridge built on caring and strengthened by the years

2011-01-25T23:08:00.001+08:00

I guess this would probably one of the most memorable outing for the 3 of us.

after 4 years plus,

we finally got a chance to go out tgt.

even though this is "not" exactly our 1st, i was still a memorable

to say, the 1st time we went out would or should be during sec 2's end of year.

the trip to xiamen with the sch's immersion trip.

even till now, i still miss those awesome moments over there.

playing in the hotel room, crapping with nonsense, writing diary as a whole, reflect on our daily activities for the whole 8 days.

it was simply great!

even though we have to part, i believe our friendship goes a long way.

we may not be able to meet each other that much anymore but believe me, we will have the chance.

yes, it's upsetting, but we know, we have our dreams to chase.

nothing in life comes easy and we know that.

we'll all hang on to this strong friendship that we all have.

not forgetting that each one of us has a diary that we kept and wrote on.

if only we had more time to write in more of our thoughts.

having this friendship that is as strong as ever even though we aren't always tgt is just simply great and i'm thankful for that.

for all that i know, they were the ones who helped to pull me through the tough times

the moral support that we gave for each other in times of needs.

i'm gonna miss all these..

hahaha i'm always thinking so much but yes, i love it XD

haha of course there were much more people that were there for me all these while

and i feel so blissful. ^^

thanks to everyone who has helped me all these while.

though many of us are chasing our dreams and going in different ways, i believe there's nth that can stop us from carrying this friendship further. :D

thanks everyone!

and thanks to yingyun and wenqi too! :D

it was really a great day out even though we didn't do much.

it was the presence and the jokes and laughter that made it great! :D

Love you guys lots!!! :D

we've shared a friendship that's grown deeper throughout the years and i realise i could never find dearer friends than you

happiness is when you help others and feel great

2011-01-22T22:14:00.006+08:00

hey there,

alright went senior citizens day today morning.

haha was great!

i felt really great helping out.

hehe looking at the senior citizens being happy,

it makes me feel so heart warming and at the same time really happy.

it's just simply splendid. hehe

alright,

met a lot of alumni committee members today

felt awkward at the start but ya, i just had to do it

i had to just go up to them, talk to them, introduce myself to them.

it was a great start for me to socialize and at the same time get out of the shells of mine.

haha time to be bold, go all out and talk to people.

it just wasn't me.

in future i would need to speak to them even more so ya.

not only did i meet those alumni committee members, i met the alumni too! haha they're really friendly

but there was just something that i just can't help feeling weird is

each and everyone of them stood up to shake hands

awkward like mad..

haha but ya, have to get use to it.

more of these kind of things going to happen.

but indeed, it really builts a different side of me.

i'm willing to go all out to do everything i can.

haha i'm just in love with what i'm doing now XD

well, it's gonna be a long journey so ya..

JIAYOU! ;D

everything has to part someday

2011-01-19T23:16:00.004+08:00

isn't life so ironic?
well, it seriously hurts so much.
isn't life so ironic?

when people were still beside you, you don't miss them but when they leave, u miss them lots and it hurts so much

i'm still holding back my tears, trying to move on.

this is part and parcel of life.

looking back at all those activities..

i really miss all those times.

ever since sec 1.

those memories, nonsense and craps we talked about and did

those nonsensical smses..

i'm gonna miss vudh so much..

feeling so xin suan...

grieved..

it sure hurts a lot..

the first time was when mo left back to thai..

i remembered i cried like mad.. so upset..

i miss her so much still. being my class buddy and sitting beside me..

now it's vudh's turn..

seriously miss him so much. 4 years.. long, not long, short, not short..

so much fun through the years,

now that he left..

sigh.. don't know what more i could say..

just plain upset..

teary eyes that i had, but i held back...

sigh... life is always like this.

there's just so much things that i miss..

oh well, i guess i just have to move on..
am talking to my buddy now.. ;'(

her video to me.. so touching..

i shld just sleep now.. so i won't think so much

with the lovelies :D

2011-01-05T09:54:00.002+08:00

These awesome girl!!! :D I love them! ;D

went clarke quay.

went mac, sat down talked

bought lunch..

talked talked talked..

went walking around...

talked talked talked..

sat down infront of river...

talked...

walked...

talked...

then headed to hougang mall to look for li xuan.

haha :D t

then headed home.

it's been a long long long time since i've really talked to them..

haha it was great. ^^

new year, new journey, new memories, new beginning

2011-01-04T23:11:00.002+08:00

hahaha ok i went work today.. ok at presbytarian again.

woke up at 530. left home at 555.

reached at 630..

work starts at 7am.

too early LOL

tired.. really tired..

cuts and all..

the storeroom was dusty and dirty

but felt so refreshed after bathing...

but sleepy

haha tired, refreshed, sleepy...

LOL mixed feeling LOL.

haha ok,

for some reasons if super happy these days

but i've got no idea why too! hahaha

but oh well.. its ok

i love being happy and cheerful LOL

幸运草 - 丁当

艳阳天，花园
汗湿他的脸，纯真是我17岁那年挂念那男孩
亮晃晃，时间拉着青春跑
跑过了午睡醒后操场的喧闹

他找到四叶幸运草
他给我万分之一的缘分
多奇妙，爱星星的微笑
在我掌心里轻轻飘

幸运草的夏天有他陪着我迷路
喜欢当时小小幸福就是爱情的全部
那天一阵烈日，一阵大雨，一整个下午
他的汗水渗进土里
为我绽放新的礼物
dalada，dalada，dalada，dalada，dalada
wo，wo……
他找到四叶幸运草
他给我万分之一的缘分
多奇妙，爱星星的微笑
在我掌心里轻轻飘

幸运草的夏天有他陪着我迷路
喜欢当时小小幸福就是爱情的全部
那天一阵烈日，一阵大雨，一整个下午
他的汗水渗进土里
为我绽放新的礼物

一转眼成长了，散了，
没结局的传说，他记不记得
幸运草里藏着的事早已经模糊
爱情就在每次泪干之后越来越清楚
直到书签破了，花园拆了，我也不再哭
才懂得有个男孩曾经为我全心付出

艳阳天，花园
汗湿他的脸，纯真是我17岁那年挂念那男孩
亮晃晃，时间拉着青春跑
跑过了午睡醒后操场的喧闹

他找到四叶幸运草
他给我万分之一的缘分
多奇妙，爱星星的微笑
在我掌心里轻轻飘

幸运草的夏天有他陪着我迷路
喜欢当时小小幸福就是爱情的全部
那天一阵烈日，一阵大雨，一整个下午
他的汗水渗进土里
为我绽放新的礼物
dalada，dalada，dalada，dalada，dalada
wo，wo……
他找到四叶幸运草
他给我万分之一的缘分
多奇妙，爱星星的微笑
在我掌心里轻轻飘

幸运草的夏天有他陪着我迷路
喜欢当时小小幸福就是爱情的全部
那天一阵烈日，一阵大雨，一整个下午
他的汗水渗进土里
为我绽放新的礼物

一转眼成长了，散了，
没结局的传说，他记不记得
幸运草里藏着的事早已经模糊
爱情就在每次泪干之后越来越清楚
直到书签破了，花园拆了，我也不再哭
才懂得有个男孩曾经为我全心付出

You just have to learn to let go and face the fact while good things never last, some don't even start

2010-12-31T17:00:00.004+08:00

Well, I really don’t have much to say. Upset, yes. Tired, hell yes. But getting through life with all these struggles? Been there, done that. I’m used to these feelings, and I know exactly how to deal with everything that life throws at me. But hopefully, sometime soon, I won’t have to go through half the emotions I have to right now.

To let go isn’t to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t winning, and it isn’t losing. It’s not about pride, it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss, and it’s not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, and overcome and move on. It’s having an open mind and confidence in the future. Letting go is accepting. It’s learning, experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon again. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It’s realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, to clear a path, and to set you free.

Thanks to those who hated me, you made me a stronger person. Thanks to those who loved me, you made my heart bigger. Thanks to those who envied me, you made my self-esteem grow. Thanks to those who cared, you made me feel important. Thanks to those who worried, you let me know that you care. Thanks to those who left, you showed me that not everything is forever. Thanks to those who stayed, you showed me the meaning of true friends. Thanks to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today.

I don’t know what happened. How we all became so fragile, so incredibly breakable. I don’t know why my tears can fall so easily yet every single one feels like I’m failing at this facade of being happy, fine, and alive. I don’t understand how missing someone can quietly kill you and how an unrequited love, just robs you of this sense of hope we all should have. I can’t comprehend how everyone thinks I’m so strong, and brave, when all I feel is weak and scared. I don’t know when this happened, when life became like this. Because looking back, it’s always been this way.

All I know is, no matter how much people hurt you, no matter how much you want to give up, and no matter how often the sun does not shine, you just need to keep going. Because for all the hurt that one person gives you, there are 10 others who care. For all the things that make you want to give up, there are so many things out there that are worth living for. And for all the days that seem cloudy and dark, just know that the sun is there, just waiting on its chance to shine.

May 2011 be a better year ahead

Haagen Dazs AGENDA ^^ aka chris and alkin

2010-12-30T02:32:00.003+08:00

Vivo ^^ with aricia twin :D

watched gulliver's travel

then haagen dazs

then we met jin for dinner at secret recipe

then haagen dazs again

the reality is that the past is dead. it happened, it shaped who you are, but it's gone now. And it's never coming back.

2010-12-27T14:44:00.007+08:00

'One Fine Day
All Of Us Will Get Busy
With Our Lives…..
Long Working Hours
No Moving Around In Groups
Less Contacts With Friends
And Even Lesser Messages/Sms

We Won’t Have Time For Ourselves
On One Such Day
You Will Look Outside Of Window
And See The Good Old Memories
Flash By You
And You Will Get A Smile
On Your Face And Probably
A Tear In Your Eyes
And You Will Turn Back
To Your Work Thinking

“I Wish I Could Go Back”.

i was clearing unwanted pics on my com and guess what, so many photos and it brought back so many memories.
i really missed those times in school.
with the council, with the choir, with the class, with friends..
i wondered, what happens to all these memories when all of us leave?
4 years. so long yet so short.
those hardships and hard reality.
people trying to pull us down.
people trying to perfect things.
demands, achievements, expectations.
when we leave, these will only be the footstep left in our memories.
i missed the awesome council exco. those rubbish we talk about during our meetings.
those lunch after our meeting. those words of concern. those reasonable understandings.
i missed choir. dedicated teachers.
members pursuing a dream. having a same goal.
syf next year, best of luck everyone.
i'd nvr wanna think back of the previous one because it just leaves me with tears.
it's like the most sour part of my life.
deep down no matter what, it still hurts me the most.
i missed those classmates of mine.
always being there when i needed them.
being absent from school like always.
nvr was like a day or 2 but always by weeks.
that fall of mine caused me not to walk for like 3.5 mths.
awful but it was made better with the help of my friends!
thanks everyone.
i still rmb how sorrowful i was as it was my bdae. aww... ;D
friends of other schools and still in touch with.
u guys were really great! though it's really been a long time since we met but ya..
that friendship that lasts and it will continue on.
we've all grown from the past.

oh well, 2010's coming to an end.
hope it'll be a better year for everyone.
it was really great for me nor was it really bad.
on average it was ok la uh..
alright tmr's choir's post christmas party.
am looking very forward to it.
if only teresa mummy could be there too.
hahaha ok ok ;D shall post soon!

look at the past as a road of memories the future as a path of untraveled dreams

2010-12-25T16:59:00.005+08:00

to say, i'm missin' childaid really a lot.

i miss the process and the care and concern of everyone.

strangers they maybe as they pass through your life.

but so what? they do mean something in one part of your life

ain't it true?

a question stuck me when angela asked me "why are u so inclined and crazy about childaid."

it set me thinking.

not only did that question made me think, it was also because of what mr tan ck said to me.

i went back for alumni meeting in the morning 7.30am. i slept at 2.30am yet i went to the meeting and i had childaid on that day too!

it was the most important day as it was gala night.

he talked to me.

firstly, the moment i came to school, he asked me to think about it on getting into the exco.

i was really reluctant to do so. really very reluctant.

but i thought about it. too much to think about i guess.

i thought back from the very start of the day when i was in sec 1.

perhaps there's just too many memories that have filled me up through these years in pei hwa and i think it's one of the way i can give back.

it made me who i am today.

it reminded me of my student council pledge.

"pledge to serve with pride, dignity and dedication".

"TO SERVE" that was the key word!

he said "i'm very happy that you guys who have childaid actually made a decision to come to the meeting. it actually means that you've made a choice to cherish what you wanted. and it also means that it's something that you're looking forward to. you've made a choice and u cherish every opportunity given to you."

it really dawned upon me.

the things that he said to me really got me thinking.

yes, i took up the position in exco as a deputy president.

even to think about it now, i'm excited and happy. not to brag about it or anything but i'm proud that i decided to take up the post.

mr ong cp spoke about a lot things. but mainly kampong spirit.

one thing that i just can't stop dwelling on is about "commitment".

how far are you willing to commit how far are you willing to give.

ms thien spoke about the willingness to give and to share.

we all are far more lucky compared to the people in the past and others who are in need.

perhaps, all these that i've been thinking about all adds up to only one word. "PASSION"

thinking back of the memories that were still etched in my mind.

all those activities with the council and the choir.

all the cip that i did.

it really all adds up to passion.

the passion to help, the passion to lead, the passion to commit, the passion to give.

i guess, for those who know me well enough would have known that i would go all way to do something that i like.

and what more doing my very best and enjoying every moment i have and every chance i was given.

before childaid, i was very afraid i would be given a job where by i would not be happy doing.

but upon seeing the sph ppl and them "fighting" for me and the heart warming feeling by them and the praises they gave and the way they express their thoughts of me going back to help.

it made me realise how important i am to someone and how much i was worth.

perhaps all these while i was just afraid that i would be unwanted and not looked upon.

from childaid and the alumni meeting, i've seen how much i am being looked upon and of course, it gave me more confidence then ever.

having doubt upon myself every time, i guess, now i shan't.

it always takes someone to believe in you that you start believing yourself.

ironic but that's life.

back to the very first question.

why am i so inclined?

i just love helping others without anything in return.

just 5 days that i can commit to. i've did what i can to help the needy.

without each and everyone in childaid, it wouldn't be a success.

be it little minor roles or whatsoever, it means a lot to the needy people.

i believe in taking chances, grabbing every opportunity.

opportunities do not come twice.

once it's gone, it'll never be the same.

make believe and do your very best..

i'm willing to commit, to help, to serve, to give.

even if it's just a little it would help.

i could have used those days to go work but i did not.

instead i went to help for a charity event. why? i just can't explain. but that's just me.

i've learnt a lot from each event and it has made me grow.

memories. a way of holding on to the feelings that u once felt even though it fades away.

merry christmas

2010-12-25T15:45:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :D

Life can be messy sometimes. But instead of mourning over it, Live. Laugh off the downfalls, and stand back up. Notice how rainbows form and take time to watch the sun rise. Feel the wind on your face and listen to the laughter of children. Be happy, because by the end of the day, nobody wants to sleep with a troubled heart. ♡

Everything is changing. Day by day, we don’t notice it, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has. People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and older we are the less sense it will make. So make the most of now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all that’s left would be memories.

We make all sorts of decisions and choices everyday and we end up doing things; some we wish we had never done, some we wish we could relieve over and over again. But all of these make us for who we are. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn’t be who we are now so just live, make mistakes, learn from them and never doubt who you are, where you’ve been and where you’re going.

work!

2010-12-23T19:42:00.007+08:00

hey all! i'm back to blog!
finished work! ;D only 2 days!
well, was kinda ok i guess.
i've got lots of cuts and injuries but oh well.
went presbyterian high school to work.
popular bookstore. worked only ytd and today.
ytd pack and shift stuff to canteen.
today sell books to sec 1s coz registration day.
tired and hungry. sweaty and smelly! D:
how sucky. but oh well, it's an experience.
not very much of a difficult job to me coz i used to do that when i was in council.
have not exercised for a long time so i'm having muscle aches and all. D:
but nvm ;D time to workout! hehe but am very lazy.
ya, and on 21st was bored and i decided to head to vivo and then to rws.
hahaha i must be really mad. but to say, i really miss childaid.
what's more to say of course my lovely stagehands and sph crews. not forgetting the performers and SP friends! love them lots!
to say, childaid actually opened me up alot.
in childaid, u see the side of me that you've nvr seen,
i'm not the quiet one nor am i the shy one.
i take up all opportunities and give everything my best shot.
i am alert and organizes everything tt i need to do. be it calling for my members or taking the call from the sph ppl.
i just can't really explain how much it means to me.
well, working at PHS made me back to the normal me.
silent, quiet, not very open, don't speak up.
and yes, was working early in PHS and guess what?
i saw mr chan!!!! omg! can't believe.
i was like inside popular talking to my friends and then all of a sudden i see someone looking in and i happened to look out and it's mr chan!
hahaha omg man! i didn't expect to see him. but ya, just so happy and glad!
well, i did made new friends in this work but ain't so close.
candy was the cashier with me at first but after tt i got to know elaine she's much friendlier and it made me better.
i felt kinda alone for sometime but luckily she was there.
haha and yes, i'm working with my pri sch best friend Li En. ;D
she intro me to this job ^^
haha she didn't have the time to really talk to me but ya, still thanks a lot to her. ;D
she hasn't really changed much but well, friendship goes a long way, it's been many years and i believe it would continue on.

CHILDAID 2010

2010-12-20T15:30:00.001+08:00

18 dec

Han Tiong and I ;D

stage hands ^^

abby, eshele, me, angela, clio, desmond goh behind, desmond lim

phss helpers and abby, eshele and daniel

me, Lin choo

shahrena, me

yenuo, charmaine toh, me

esther and i

me, wee, meryl

mao xiang and i

edwin and i

jenna and i

joshua and i.

oh well, someone shouted: youngest couple of the year

ZZZ..

then someone sent a friend request =.= on fb saying:
Hey sorry I juz adding everyone. Hope Youu dun mind I am NOT tt guy who said hey babe (: so yeahh hes an asshole sorry bout him :x.

stagehands!!!

meizhi and i

cherie and i

daniel and i

Han Tiong and i

Daryl and i.

the young guns and i

hady and i

andrea and i

eugene and i

whoot! drummers and i

clio and i. haha look my hair. its super straight. LOL

desmond lim and i

PHSS <3>

aaron and i. haha phss girls are crazy for him. but i prefer daryl. LOL.

daryl and i.

desmond lim, syafiqah, me

17 dec

clio and i. haha see my curled hair!

eshele, clio, me, abby

meryl, me, syafiqah

CHILDAID 2010

2010-12-20T15:00:00.006+08:00

HI PEOPLE!!! I'M FEELING REALLY HYPER NOW!! LOL

ok i guess you guys shld know what i'm gonna blog about right now!

CHILDAID 2010!!!!

alright yeah

back from childaid and yes, i'm seriously very happy that i've helped out

though i wasn't really tt looking forward before hand but after the briefing it got all my energies back!

I'M SIMPLY IN LOVE WITH CHILDAID!!

alright i'm gonna start sharing my feelings and experience now!

alright! like my earlier posts! briefing day got back all my happiness upon seeing all the lovely sph people! i simply love them to the max! always so friendly and nice to be with! joking and playing and laughing. spending each and every moment with them is simply splendid and just plain awesome! got to know syafiqah and angela! new members of sph! ;D yeah managed to see Andrea, Shahrena, Lin Choo, Han Tiong, Alan, Daniel, wee, khalid, dave.

i'm gonna talk about 15th dec 1st!

alright clio, desmond lim and i headed to RWS for our very first rehearsal! together with abby, eshele and desmond goh. our 1st rehearsal didn't turn out too well. we just merely sat through the whole rehearsal but didn't rehearse our parts at all. spent the whole day sitting there. well, as usual everyone's super quiet coz we don't know each other. haha that just that day. lunch was very quiet too! well, to say tt lunch was the best lunch of all. LOL! headed home and reached home around 1030. tired but yeah. worth the while.

16th dec ;D

alright our official day before the day of concert.

make it or break it!

had our rehearsals ;D like there was alot of changes but ya still managed to do a little of our parts. lunch wasn't that quiet anymore haha but still kinda quiet. but lots of laughter coz of clio an esther. they were asking what food it was. well, lunch was worse than 1st day. we managed to know more about each other. between des, clio, abby, eshele, des, angela, syafiqah and i. haha dug each others secrets out oh well haha we're all fine with it. haha funny! dinner was worse than lunch. how sad... but still we ate a little. went home and reached at abt 11plus. getting later and later.. slept at 2am

17th dec concert night!!!!!

wow! gotta do the best we can tonight!

morning called clio and des to wake up.

met them then

had rehearsals again and again. again and again!

sadly, abby fell sick =[ meryl had to take over her. aww... meryl sudden notice to take over. but she learnt fast! very fast!

hahas it was really great working with des, clio, abby, eshele, des, angela, syafiqah and meryl. not forgetting andrea!!! ;D and of course daniel ^^

ok. next up! lunch.. ok worse than the day before. then dinner was.. errrr... even worse. LOL. it was a great night with lots of fun! haha pic pic pics!
dug secrets again! played true or dare and all in the make up room! haha, oh yes, they gave me thick make up and the hairstylist gave me curled hair which made me feel really weird.. but it was nice though. haha! amos came for the concert coz i gave him the tickets. :D

that was that day. reached home at like 12plus slept at 230am =[

18th dec gala night

zombiefied me woke up at 730 and headed to school for alumni meeting.

listened to them talk about kampong spirit haha!

nominations of being in exco etc.

after that headed to rws again! ;D

tonight's gala night and also our last night together. aww..

played true or dare.. talked crap and nonsense again! haha the super not me LOL.

i always hate the feelings of parting =[ it feels like smth u've again is being lost somewhere.

abby was well tonight and ya, she went to accompany the tai tais hahahaha quite fun like what i did previously. LOL! ushering was fun last year too!

hehe! shahrena asked me if i wanted to be chaperon next year. but well, i'm happy with this job for the past year too!

chaperon looks like much of a trouble to me but haha i don't mind giving it a shot. but i'll see who wants me next year XD

ok, enough of nonsense. ok lunch-- no lunch. but tea break. of all, the tea break was the nicest.

dinner was the worst of all days. haha see the quality declining huh? LOL! biscuits were nicer than their food. :X

had thick make up again but this time straightened hair.. which was even weirder than ytd

ok took lots of pics and all haha! tried hard to push daniel down while taking pic but he's too heavy for all of us! LOL.

andrea was really sweet she disappeared for quite sometime. she went hersheys and candylicious aww.. she got us hershey chocolate though it expires tmr but i've finished it. and candylicious jellybeans! omg! love it man! haha!

ok took lots of super great pics! ;D i simply love them all and can't express those happiness out!! ;D just feeling super glad and happy i got to know all these awesome people around me!

pics in next post!

well, i've learnt that chances are there for you to grab and opportunities don't come often. take it or leave it. trust between one another gets u close even if you were strangers. it's up to your own effort to open up yourself and engage yourself with conversations. u need to put in your own effort to get to know the others. that's how each and every new friendship begins. we have to part in our lives but do not forget that every process been through would have meant a lot of each and everyone of us.

tired yet magical

2010-12-15T23:59:00.004+08:00

oh well, gonna be a very short one before i continue to prepare for tmr.

hmm gonna leave hse at 11. reached home at like 1030 today.

very tired.

ya, had awful dream ytd night. talk abt it some other day.

hmm was kinda wasted trip today. spent most of my time stoning and all.

zzz.. tmr i bring things to go there do or smth. lol.

books to read i guess.

oh well, just random thought.

was thinking why do ppl want to commit in smth that they do not have time for and in the end finding it super boring?

haha ok, anyway,

was looking at the finale just now and that same strong gush of heart felt feelings came back once more.

it feels magical.

it just reached into my hearts and i was like on the verge of tearing LOL.

it's just different. it feels so diff last yr and this yr because of the ppl around.

i just simply accept somethings but i know i need to.

so i'll bear with it.

i just love the theme song. awesome performers!

thanks for letting me feel that magical feeling once more!

child aid briefing

2010-12-14T21:03:00.003+08:00

went to ChildAid's briefing today!

well, i guess its a great start.

Seeing those SPH people once again as well as those helpers last year was really great.

the feeling of meeting those people once again is really awesome!

i don't really exactly know how to express the feeling but it's simply splendid.

saw Andrea, Shahrena, Lin Choo, Han Tiong, Alan, Daniel...

didn't see Wee, Khalid, Jx and Dave today. wondering if they are still working.

This year's ChildAid gave me a very experience from the start.

A really very different one.

It's like the feeling is so magical

going there and all those SPH members still recognising you.

This year's job scope is really a wide one, ranging from, ushers, helpers, stage crews, promoters, VIP carpark attender... etc.

last year i was working under sha, han tiong, andrea then lias with alan, lin choo, khalid, wee and dave while the rest was under Jx and dan.

this year i'm working under andrea. haha, it was really funny when andrea and dan was fighting over joshua

and then after that andrea and lin choo were fighting over me

LOL haha *stage/ VIP usher?? which one, your choice.* haha

i said, *i'm fine with both.*

Lin C. haha *ok la, u go with andrea.*

haha its like once a reach there andrea already *chopped* me. haha i'm under her.

haha its very funny especially when the SPH ppl are all like... *there.. she's Grace. Andrea already Chopped*

then its like the rest, is like *how??? who to take now...*

hahaha andrea's really friendly as usual haha ya, fierce at times but after that she goes crazy again. haha

this year, i'm in-charge of the 10 members again. so cool right haha. ok i'm crazy~

this year my job's scope is to go on stage to pass the trophies, plagues, cheques etc.. haha seems so fun

we're dealing with logistics too!

clio's together with me and des is shadow shadow- syafiqah is andrea shadow and des is syafiqah shadow. lols.

hmm renyi's working under han tiong this year. haha han tiong is still as nice and friendly as ever. haha.

esther's helping to distribute carpark tickets :D

i simply love those ppl in SPH they're like so friendly and welcoming. it makes me feel so comfortable and relaxed. :D

i'm so looking forward to tomorrow :D but gonna "work" till quite late haha but it's gonna be worth the while!

till a later day!

day out with the loves

2010-12-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

13 dec

- pool with jeanette and melvin ^^

-dinner @ pizza hut

tumblr speaks my heart out

2010-12-12T23:49:00.001+08:00

i'm simply in love with tumblr. things that you don't know what to say from yr thoughts, you simply just reblog them. it's so much easier than having to type them out and still can't express yourself.

“
If time can turn in today
And we left too many things to say
If we could turn it back
What would we want to change
And now’s the time to take a chance
Come on, we gotta make a stand
What have we got to lose
The choice is in our hands
And we can find a way
To do anything, if we try to
Live like there’s no tomorrow
‘Cause all we have is here, right now
Love like it’s all that we know
The only chance that we ever found
Believe in what we feel inside
Believe and it will never die
Don’t never let this life pass us by
Live like there’s no tomorrow
If there never was a night, a day
And memories could fade away
Then there’d be
Nothing left, but the dreams we made
Take a leap in faith and hope you fly
Feel what it’s like to be alive
Give it all that we’ve got
And lay it all on the line
And we can find a way
To do anything, if we try to
Live like there’s no tomorrow
‘Cause all we have is here, right now
Love like it’s all that we know
The only chance that we ever found
Believe in what we feel inside
Believe and it will never die
Don’t never let this life pass us by
Live like there’s no tomorrow
Be here by my side
We’ll do this together
Just you and me
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible
Live like there’s no tomorrow
‘Cause all we have is here, right now
Love like it’s all that we know
The only chance that we ever found
Believe in what we feel inside
Believe and it will never die
Don’t never let this life pass us by
Live like there’s no tomorrow, oh
Live like there’s no tomorrow
‘Cause all we have is here, right now
Love like it’s all the we know
The only chance that we ever found
Believe in what we feel inside
Believe and it will never die
”

Live Like there’s no tomorrow- Selena Gomez

following activities

2010-12-12T17:15:00.003+08:00

gonna meet jeanette and melvin tmr for pool.

whee~~~ i love going out with them.

i rmb the last time i went out with the two of them was during Os for studying.

tuesday gonna go childaid briefing and then to yiliang's birthday celebration

i'm hesitating currently

briefing's at sentosa till 6pm

and he's starting at 5pm

i've yet to get his gift as well.. oh crap. i'll settle the gift tmr then.

thurs to sat is childaid and ya, idk y i'm not very looking forward to it this year.

i don't know.

i feel that there won't be much fun already.

oh well, maybe it's just that i'm thinking too much.

nevermind. we'll see.

the following week's gonna be christmas and ya, will be meeting friends to celebrate on tues; avoid crowd.

till a later date!

capture those memories

2010-12-12T16:13:00.018+08:00

10 dec 2010
went expo for annual dinner- theng hai huay guan
went to walk around at the convention centers first
went into 1 that sells furniture.
haha dad and mum bought a whole new set of bed.
it looks really nice its $1700
LOL the seller is my bro's classmate's mother.
damn funny. then i saw one guy there. he's younger than me. he looks super familiar but i just can't remember where i saw him before.
same goes to bro.
he seems to be looking at us too. its like both parties feel that they've seen the other somewhere but just don't remember.
after that headed to john little.
lots of things to purchase but not enough time so headed to dinner.
this year's 8 course dinner was really different.
the food is really nice and better.
sharkfin served its like a lot of it.you can see two slices of it.
dinner ended really late.
took cab home.
texted with jj abt the surprise for mike's birthday celebration.
slept really late.

11 dec 2010

woke up early and eyes could hardly open insisted tt mum cooked lunch before bro and i both go out.
quickly took breakfast and started to make mike's card.
ate lunch and went to compass.
roamed around and all.
waited for gerald, junde, soo jun and yi liang.
bought cups of cakes and let them write the card then went mrt
waited for jj and nicholas to bring mike to us
sadly, nicholas gave away.
mike knew there was a celebration with him. D:
but he didn't know who was going.
headed over to marina barrage
the guys were like pushing and trying to get one another into the water
then roamed around in the center and getting to know more about the barrage.
there was a sudden down pour.
waited for the passing clouds and headed to marina square.
they wanted to have dinner so we went to have dinner.
after dinner headed to arcade. they changed their minds and so we went pool instead.
haha first time playing it and it was gosh.
mike had a flying ball
i missed all if not i got the white ball into the pit. it was like damn funny.
we can't help but to laugh at each other constantly.
haha so joke.
after playing for 2 hours it was 9pm.
decided to head home for it was late.
this was the weirdest outing ever. 7 guys and 1 girl- me.
and ya, on the way home went to buy bread for dad's gonna be home late.
and ya, had the weirdest 'big surprise'.
i don't know what to say but it simply left me speechless. ok shan't say much of it coz its super weird.

cameras can capture the memories;
but only for a moment or two. you can look back at the pictures, and
feel slight happiness from remembering that day, but you’ll never get
the full feeling back. you’ll remember where you were and the people
you were with, and you might get a little bit of heartache because
you wanna go back to that day, but all you can really remember is
how incredible you felt at the time

amazing days!

2010-12-08T22:20:00.005+08:00

hey ya, yes yes, i've been out!

6th dec, monday
ok, i went NEX with renyi
went to walk around and then had lunch at food republic
then went to marina square
went kbox ;D
haha sang and all ^^
awesome!
then went to city square mall
saw nicole ;D haha
then had dinner at kopitiam.
yummy ;D
then went home.

7th dec, tuesday

yes, like finally. was unwell the previous tuesday so i cancelled the outing.
and ytd went out!
haha. went vivo,
went to candy empire ^^ bought chocolates and candies.
then headed to daiso.
then to the soup spoon to have lunch
then walked around and all.
decided to head to sentosa
arrived and walk to siloso beach. too bored and hot there.
so walked to palawan beach.
went koufu and have a drink
had coconut ;D haha i've got total no skill in removing coconut meat. XD
kept spilling on my hand and table.
managed to to it after like half an hour.
haha but ya, it was cooling.
after that i said i wanted to go rws.
lols so we trained there.
haha amazing. so nice. went there last yr for childaid and all under renovation =[
now so nice.
went candylicious. bought lollipops for melvin! haha! and thanks to him for the trolley. its damn cute ^^
headed to hersheys but didn't buy anything there.
then walked around other shops. ;D
haha after that was real tired so i decided to head back to vivo then home
awesome day.
haha ok, i admit i just couldn't smile idk why.
but ya, candylicious rule of the shop, you'll be happier after u enter the shop.
ha, indeed ^^ so fun in there.
i'm intending to go back there someday.
hopefully i have the time when i'm in childaid. i wanna get more stuff from candylicious.

the trolley; available in pink and green.. (hersheys one is in brown)

alright, waiting for friday. annual dinner ^^

till a later date

new table ;D

2010-12-08T22:08:00.003+08:00

oh well, i'm here again!
haha, ok, my new table and side table arrived today.
it was supposed to be delivered on sunday but they missed out mine.
hmm, dad bought it at his furniture warehouse sale.
it's like $1 each. like where to find it?
but only 3 items are $1 and each item only 20 stocks.
but sadly, the delivery fee is $55.
if we had a car, we could have just drove it home paying only $2.
the table is kinda retro and it doesn't fit my room when everything is modern
but ya, its cheap so.. ya.
i haven't get rid of my old desk.
bro's waiting for me to clear my two drawers.
and i'm waiting for tmr to clean the new table and shift everything.
its's been long with that desk.
studied with it since primary school.
the upper shelf was thrown away coz bro broke it last year while shifting.
it wasn't really stable after so many years.
haha. ok, i guess its a good time for the table to come in
so i would bother clearing my room full of books, papers, gifts and all.
time to pack all my stuff and get ready for new year lol.

choir performance at concorde hotel and day out to orchard central

2010-12-03T21:09:00.007+08:00

CONCORDE HOTEL

before light up

after light up

ORCHARD CENTRAL

we're all made of stars

2010-11-29T15:01:00.004+08:00

Saw this on tumblr. Is seems so cool...

I am learning to understand rather than immediately judge or to be judged.
I cannot blindly follow the crowd and accept their approach.
I will not allow myself to indulge in the usual manipulating game of role creation.
Fortunately for me, my self-knowledge has transcended that and I have come to understand that life is best to be lived and not to be conceptualized.
I am happy because I am growing daily and I am honestly not knowing where the limit lies.
To be certain, every day there can be a revelation or a new discovery.
I treasure the memory of the past misfortunes.
It has added more to my bank of fortitude.
Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes.
In order to be free, we must learn how to let go.
Release the hurt. Release the fear.
Refuse to entertain your old pain.
The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.

happy birthday bro!

2010-11-29T14:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CASPAR BROTHER!!! ;D

he's 23 years old
celebrated his birthday ytd night
bought him a graduation bear.
cost me $59.90
well, he spoilt my plan!!!
he saw the bear.
like ugh...
but oh well, i'm lazy to post up the pics curently.
till a later date!~

prom and outing

2010-11-26T23:23:00.016+08:00

22 nov
woke up in the morning.
tired.
mum crashed my mood in the morning. oh well..
kept silent for the whole day
tried speaking but was still very silent
was even more silent than i normally am.
mr chong picked us up from our house.
headed over to bras basah
teresa's sis helped to make up.
hahas was a little weird with my prom dress.
not used to it.
after make up, headed over to concord hotel!
haha we're 2nd last to reach.
did enjoy myself on prom but ya, i guess i was just tired for i hadn't been able to sleep well for the past few days.

the group which went china, xiamen

2e3`2008 ;D energizer batteries

23 nov
headed out to discuss on vudh and des birthday.
everyone was lethargic
well, drank bubble tea
after discussion went bras basah to retrieve my bag
went dinner with teresa, her sis and lynette
awesome! haha saw dad and mum at cp kopitiam too!
haha the 3 siblings have been away from home like daily XD

24 nov
headed out for discussion and purchasing of gifts too!
tired. sleepy and all.
another rainy day as well. =[
had tough choices to decide on what to buy for the 2 birthday boys
so hard to choose.
bought at all, went cp mac to eat discuss and all

25 nov
happy birthday to vudh and desmond.
it was messy at start as we separated into 2 groups.
hahas was funny ;D
saw ms lee on the mrt.
hahas ;D
headed to marina barrage
talked and all.
hahas then the group with vudh came!
had lunch and all.
waited for jessica and dwayne to come
fooled vudh and all.
had mac and kfc for lunch
choked on water when they said something.
but i can't rmb what
talked, played true or dare, hide and seek
i'm lucky or wad, only managed to get picked by true or dare once. ;D
night time headed over to vudh's house.
he didn't expect us to be there. hehe.
after that, headed home.

today
woke up at like 1pm.
ate lunch, use com, watch glee.
choke on air.
can u believe it?? air.
bathe, headed out
off to swensens for dinner
well everything was well except...
they suck. service sucks. everyone finished eating but my main course haven come.. then i just start eating my main course...
halfway like 5mins only, they serve me my dessert- ice cream. i ended up eating semicircle ice cream for bottom is cream.
gross... and i'm the only one with ice cream, they gave me 3 spoons. then the soup for bro came after main course.. -.-
haha, so amazing and splendid! =]
went to buy bro's birthday cake.
saw yenuo and ivy working at the icing room. ;D
then amazingly, my bro turned and saw Lotso, the pink teddy in toy story.
i hesitated to buy or not but i still bought it.
$3.50 for it. one and only one. hahas it got my spirits lifted up ;p
oh well, that today.

before prom

2010-11-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

alright, 17 nov
met teresa, her sis, her sis friend and des to haji lane
met des first at bugis.
went walking around to find the place.
it was des, lucky day.. bird shit. LOL!
hahas had lots of fun.
decided to buy a dress.
bought and went dinner at 313
went home, got scolded and nagged at.
mum didn't like the dress at all.
oh well..

18 nov
woke up, mum forced me to go out to buy a new one.
oh well, i'll do it then
went bugis and bought a new one.
mum didn't allow me to buy new shoes for prom so well, had to wear a shoe i already had.
went searching for accessories but too big for me.
bought my flats too for i didn't have any shoes to wear to go out
hehe went in slippers XD
oh, i can't rmb where i had my dinner at

19 nov
went searching with teresa, her sis, her sis friend for her shoe.
i was bored for i didn't have anything to buy.
but ya, it was fun accompanying.
went to buy mask stuffs too.
tired. but ya, had a funfilled day

20 nov
managed to have a break, i ya, i went somewhere
but can't remember.

21 nov
went teresa's house to make the mask
haha so cool! amazed with how it turned out to be ;D

[next post]

class chalet

2010-11-26T22:57:00.004+08:00

packed at all, i was all set and ready to go to chalet! 15- 16 nov
whooo~~~oooo~~~
headed to teresa's house and off, to chalet!
reached at like 6 plus almost 7.
headed to the bedroom and slacked for 10mins b4 going down
hahas tired. real tired.
still, went to help out at of course, eat!!!!
went to sleep at about 230am till 630
another 4 hours. still really tired. but well, headed over to downtown east to eat mac!
hahas after that went back laid on the bed, slacked.
packed up, left. end of chalet.
went to AMK to watch RED. lunch at kopitiam.
went home. aunt was at home, talk to her for 5 mins, i fell asleep.
slept from 430 till 8, woke up blur..
couldn't walk at all. i slept with my legs on the handle of the soft, making my leg really tight.
wanted to skip dinner but ended up eating a lot.
ate popeyes and rice, veg, fish, potato, meat...
bathed... went to sleep again.

choir camp

2010-11-26T22:12:00.006+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!!! I'M BACK AFTER A LONG TIME!

alright a lot of things have been happening after O levels so i've yet to have time to update. i'm just gonna briefly update for its gonna be really long.

first up, choir camp, 13-15 nov 2010
ended Os on 12 nov the next day went camp
had mac for breakfast.
it was quite of a slacking camp for we seniors.
but well, we still enjoyed it very much.
went greendale for exchange. it was really bored at the starting but ya, managed to kill time.
made lots of jokes within the exco.
drew on whiteboard all the nonsense ;D hahahaha
built spiderwebs as well, but we didn't play. kinds wasted but well, we enjoyed.
cooked greenbean soup for the campers at night. hahas had lots of fun laughing and joking.
that was day 1...
slept for 1 hour for we were discussing ghost night for the next day.
and there we are the next morning, day 2.
we had free time when they had practices so we had breaks.
kept trying to hide things we wanted to make for our teachers and juniors.
was in the lounge and mr ng,the ncc teacher kept walking past.
we all kept our things really quickly thinking it was our teacher.
he must have started laughing like hell, for our reaction was epic.
he must have saw what we did too. it was really hilarious.
haha can't help but to still laugh even till now, coz it was really funny. hahahahas. such a joke.
they had some games on the 2nd day.
2nd day was a rainy day =[
never liked rainy days. ;X
well, same thing happened. all those epic reaction in the lounge. hahas was a joke
gonna cut short day 2 coz we're like kinda anti-social.
actually, we're not.
its just that we're hiding from everyone what we're doing.
day 2 didn't have anything much happening till night.
night was ghost night.
we had a chance to scare our conductor.
oh well, he gave really stupid reasons not to play.
but still, we managed to get him through it.
hahas thanks to "mary".
hahas guess what, he got scared by a teddy bear that i threw at him hahahahas.
ok next up was the juniors.
can't help to laugh each time they screamed when i threw the teddy bear at them.
hahahas "AHHHHHHH..AHHHHHHH.AAHHHHH" a never ending scream. hahas.
it was amazing.
when all else ended, we headed back to the music room.
juniors danced, but we seniors we're real tired.
planning, communicating, scaring, trying to not scare ourselves too.
tired. just pure tired.
day 2 ended, headed to sleep.
talked till 530am and went to sleep, decided to wake up at 630 but guess what? overslept till 730.
like we're all worn-out.
well, thats the end of the 2nd day.. off to the 3rd day. the last day.
we missed breakfast for we overslept.
packed up got off.
went canteen and started to do whatever we could. letters to our teachers
tired with only 3 hours of sleep, i knew i can't do anything, but to hang on and hang in there.
i must stay awake.
did everything, until it was time to break camp, went to distribute the gifts and letters.
had fun. ;D
went lunch @sakae sushi. ha, i guess its gonna be choir's trend after each camp. exco to sakae sushi!
mr chong, treated us! ;D
after lunch, headed home... took out everything that was not needed...

[next post]

bits and pieces that makes up the last day of 4e2

2010-10-09T15:33:00.000+08:00

jessica(e1) and i

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尽在不言中

回想初次相逢
我被你们捉弄
如今你们已不是顽童

熟悉的脸孔
熟悉的笑容
我永远难忘怀

熟悉的脸孔
熟悉的笑容
长留在我心中

songs!

2010-10-09T15:21:00.004+08:00

I'll Remember You lyrics

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

Forever baby, I'll remember you

If I Let You Go lyrics

[Shane:]
Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

[Mark:]
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before

[All (Shane lead):]
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

[All:]
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? ([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
[Shane:] if I let you go?

[Bryan:]
Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
It's such a shame we're worlds apart

[Shane:]
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

[All:]
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know
[Shane:] if I let you go ?

[Shane:]
If I let you go ooooh baby
Ooooooooohhhhh

[Bryan:]
Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
Ooooooooohhhhh

[All:]
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
([Mark:] close to me)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
([Bryan:] if I let you go?)
But if I let you go I will never know
([Mark:] oh baby)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
([Shane:] oh yeah)
How will I know
[Shane:] if I let you go ?

At The Beginning lyrics

(Anastasia)
We were strangers,
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are,
And I'm suddenly standing,
At the beginning with you

(Dimitri)
No one told me
I was going to find you,
Unexpected
What you did to my heart,
(BOTH) When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

(Chorus)
And life is a road
And I wanna to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

(Anastasia)
We were strangers
On a crazy adventure

(Dimitri)
Never dreaming
How dreams would come true
(Both) Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(Chorus)

(Both)
I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone, in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothings gonna tear us apart

(Chorus)

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on
Starting out on a journey

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

One In Love lyrics
Have you seen the sunset, fade beneath a rain cloud?
Have you ever chased your dreams away?
Did you ever think that?
Life was just a highway, a never-ending road of lonely days.

There are times we cry, and reach out to the sky.
For the strength we need, to hold our head up high.

[Chorus:]
All we need have to do now is love one another.
Sisters and Brothers, can all live as one.
And all we have to do now is show one another.
We all need each other, to love as on in love.

Have you seen a sunrise, promising you daylight?
When all you need is shelter from the storm.
Have you ever felt that love was just an island
You can't survive on love all on your own.
There are times when I need to reach inside.
For the strength I need, to hold my head up high.

[Chorus]

If we push aside the blame, for the tears and the pain.
You know love can reign, and the world will smile again.

If we push aside the blame, for the tears and the pain.
You know love can reign, and the world will smile again.

If We Hold On Together lyrics

Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far, don't throw it away
Live believing dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, faith, hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by for you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a star, hold on to the end
Valley, mountain, there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying, someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by for you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by for you and I

最初的梦想-范玮琪

如果骄傲没被现实大海冷能拍下
又怎会懂得要多努力
才走得到远方
如果梦想不曾坠落悬崖
千钧一发
又怎会晓得执着的人
有隐形翅牓
把眼泪装在心上
会开出勇敢的花
可以在疲惫的时光
闭上眼睛闻到一种芬芳
就像好好睡了一夜直到天亮
又能边走着边哼着歌
用轻快的步伐
沮丧时总会明显感到孤独的重量
多渴望懂得的人给些温暖借个肩膀
很高兴一路上我们的默契那么长
穿过风又绕个弯心还连着
像往常一样
最初的梦想紧握在手上
最想要去的地方
怎么能在半路就放
最初的梦想绝对会到达
实现了真的渴望
才能够算到过了天堂
绝对会到达

out to marina barrage

2010-09-10T21:49:00.008+08:00

MARINA BARRAGE

with belle, esther, dwayne, des, hf. teresa is missing =[

met at 11
went buy snacks
then kfc buy chicken and egg tarts
took mrt to promanade then dunno how go
then mrt to marina bay
walk to bus stop
then we were 50m away from the bus stop when bus 400 came
then he uncle very good wait for us
lol we didn't know lor
we wanted to miss it
but we walked all the way there slowly, the uncle waited for us.
So good.
Kudos to that bus driver!
Hahas played uno, lost
then ate kfc
then prank called dickson and clio
i didn it on dickson and he freaked out
hahas a revenge for hf
he believed it was esther
lol then went to walk around
took photos
then joked
then mrt to kovan eat tau heuy
then home..

hail hf:
http://i53.tinypic.com/650tp3.jpg
hf qian shou guan yin:
http://i53.tinypic.com/acq5if.jpg
hf qian shou guan yin fail:
http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=2u3wh1i&s=7
carrying des:
http://i55.tinypic.com/35jxi0w.jpg
belle(cow) eat grass
http://i55.tinypic.com/afjzoo.jpg
me throwing hf phone away:
http://i52.tinypic.com/o5th7m.jpg
des hitting:
http://i53.tinypic.com/206ohtl.jpg
laughing at es:
http://i56.tinypic.com/w051zk.jpg
belle punching es:
http://i56.tinypic.com/33e6cxt.jpg
des and dwayne playing scissors, papers, stone:
http://i55.tinypic.com/2crtstd.jpg

AWESOME ^^
love today

katong laksa!

2010-09-07T20:51:00.002+08:00

<~~~courtesy from vinni, show luo's wife~~~>

went Katong to eat Katong Laksa~~~
awesome!!! love it! was fun!!
the journey was so long.. 1 hour..

then wanted to go belle house
halfway walking to teresa hse, dad called
then say go orchard
so i didn't go
its like already in sengkang then went orchard
it was really retarded.
everything was like a waste of time except having tea.
met aunt first then went for tea at coffee club

passion fruit and chocolate embrace- $6

passion fruit smoothie- $6.90

after that met parents and then went home.
its like going down to orchard and back home
so stupid lor.
total waste of time.
i could say i feel like shit at that very moment, seriously.
it sucks like hell. and i thought i could have dinner somewhere nice
and guess what? i ended up home with chicken rice.
and i swear tt chicken rice sucks.
the rice is uncooked. the chicken was too oily.
there's no way for me to eat it for i have sensitive stomach.
so only ate 3 mouth of rice. a few pieces of chicken.
ya and thats ytd. everything i thought could be well just spoilt my mood.

happy birthday aunt alice!

2010-08-31T23:00:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Aunt Alice ^^

back

2010-08-28T17:30:00.003+08:00

ok i'm back for more. ok for what i could say mock prelim is screwed. seriously screw.
done. killed. died. i can't believe this was my very first time i didn't complete all of my papers
unbelievable huh? but ya its reality. still have more papers next week.

ok next to say about my leg.. well, yes, indeed it is getting better. much better.
i can walk i can jump but run... short distance only.
sometimes it still hurts.. but yeah.. its ok. i can resist the pain of my muscles
hmm still my right leg is colder compared to my left.
one of the blood vessels or perhaps is veins broken.
resulting my right leg to be colder.
swollen? hmm just a little can't really see already.
well, ya... it will be better. all the pain would be gone.
even though there's bound to be sharp pains all of a sudden.
not it not gonna be painful anymore. not going to have it anymore.
it will all be over soon.
scar? yes its a big one. and my dad laughed at me because its a heart shape. =.=
well, i really hope it will all soon be over.
and this fall has caused me to have mental fear.
i'm fearful of walking on steps and down steps.
especially downwards
just ytd i slipped and nearly flew down the flight of steps.
scared the hell out of me. was really worried i would fall once more.
i'm going to overcome my fear. its not going to haunt me.
even though i know it takes time.
but its ok. it will recover. it will be better. it will be well.
i still cannot kneel down of course. it would hurt.

next.. yes i'm much more better now. not sick anymore i guess.
after 1 week of fever its ok already. 2 weeks of hell of cough, flu and all the nonsense. 3rd week of sickness became better. now its totally ok! ;D

now i finally know how it feels to be like jiahao.
it feels bounded for that whole month unable to move. it feels really uneasy having all of your friends carrying your stuff and helping u get from one place to another. it may even be a few steps of walk but you just can't do it yourself. and that feeling sucks. its so awkward being treated like the boss or something. just don't feel good having ppl to "serve" you. its really uneasy. but i'd really like to thank them for helping me all these while. esp when i can't come to school yet i insisted on going because i know i've missed a week of school. and there after coming back i had fever. which is like hell for me.

yes, i insisted on coming to school for class photo taking. i missed last year's one because i was on 9 days mc. it was hell for me too! yes, i'm drinking vitamin c everyday because i'm weak. yes, i have not been eating much for the past few weeks. but yes, i'm eating more now. =] more than what i usually eat.

ya, i don't really know what to say i guess... i know this post is like so random and anyhow. the ideas are like jumping everywhere. yes, o level chinese results back. no feeling at all... ya whatever. shall go off now! bye~

delayed

2010-08-28T16:21:00.004+08:00

[DELAYED]

celebration with family.

[CHOIR CLIQUE] p.s. there is more to come... soon.

thanks for coming over at night though there's school the next day and i think exam for some of you. ;X

national day celebration

2010-08-06T16:00:00.003+08:00

it has been 2 weeks plus since my fall.
it was a really a bad one =[
but its much better now. still can't climb the stairs =[
hahahaha
today national celebration. ^^
love 4e2 man hahas the UG girls carried me up using their UG skills.
hahahahas damn funny la.
mr tong even took photos of it so joke.
hahas they carried me down also.
hahahahaha
so fun ^^ love it man!

冠婷

2010-07-24T14:35:00.001+08:00

冠婷 2:08:39 PM

冠婷 2:09:23 PM
我是冠婷
grace 洁玫 2:11:42 PM
你好！

冠婷 2:11:54 PM

grace 洁玫 2:12:01 PM
看得到我写的字吗？

冠婷 2:12:07 PM
可以看到
grace 洁玫 2:12:22 PM

冠婷 2:12:23 PM
我把我最近的照片给你。
grace 洁玫 2:12:35 PM
好的。

14:12:48
File received.

Open file Open the containing folder

grace 洁玫 2:12:51 PM
我也给你我的！

冠婷 2:12:58 PM
好的
14:14:53
The contact cancelled sending "P23-04-10_13.17[1].jpg"(554.00KB).

14:15:23
Success to send file "P1040961.JPG"(1.47MB).

冠婷 2:15:36 PM
你好漂亮啊

冠婷 2:15:45 PM
哈哈/
grace 洁玫 2:15:48 PM
谢谢

grace 洁玫 2:15:57 PM
哈哈

冠婷 2:15:58 PM
我们都长大了 ~ 好象
grace 洁玫 2:16:29 PM
对阿！时间真的是过得好快
冠婷 2:16:37 PM
是啊
grace 洁玫 2:16:58 PM
一转眼，我们就快要认识两年了
冠婷 2:17:22 PM
是啊我很喜欢新加坡很想去玩
grace 洁玫 2:18:00 PM
哈哈！等你来新加坡时，我带你去不同的地方玩！；D
冠婷 2:18:07 PM
好的！
grace 洁玫 2:18:36 PM
=] 真希望能赶快和你见面
冠婷 2:18:44 PM
我也是啊~~~
grace 洁玫 2:19:06 PM
你们是及时放假？

冠婷 2:19:14 PM
我们现在就放假
冠婷 2:19:23 PM
放90多天。
冠婷 2:20:00 PM
可是新加坡太远了我现在去的话我妈不放心呢。

grace 洁玫 2:20:15 PM
哦！我们现在，在上课。下个假期要等十一月
冠婷 2:20:34 PM
哦~~ 那时候我们就上课了啊~ 嘿嘿！
grace 洁玫 2:20:40 PM
哈哈！久等我们长大一些吧！
grace 洁玫 2:21:15 PM
就是说马为什么假期都不一样，很难见面
冠婷 2:21:23 PM
是啊。
grace 洁玫 2:21:57 PM
那你们的下一个假期是几时？
冠婷 2:22:08 PM
1月
grace 洁玫 2:22:23 PM
到几时？
冠婷 2:22:59 PM
到2 月
grace 洁玫 2:23:43 PM
这样。。。我明年的一月和二月好像也没读书也
冠婷 2:24:06 PM
呵呵那可能就可以见面。
冠婷 2:24:43 PM
我还有点事。
grace 洁玫 2:24:53 PM
？
冠婷 2:25:04 PM
先这样下次聊
grace 洁玫 2:25:11 PM
好的！

gifts ;DDDDDD

2010-07-23T12:43:00.010+08:00

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

hmm im actually kinda lazy to take pic of what exactly does all the things in each bag is.
but really thanks so much.
thanks everyone for the birthday wishes, well wishes, gifts
and most importantly the
bunch of crazy friends i have, for coming over to my house and
giving me a surprise.
I was really shocked and thankful. :)
thanks so much to Joclique, WG, charmaine, haofan,desmond, kenneth, albinia, sinyee :)
:) thanks to lynette, patricia, poh im, yvonne and teresa ;DDD thanks for the surprises at night people ;D didn't expect anyone to turn up at night but you guys did ;D
thanks to wenqi, ying yun and chia wing too! ;DDDD thanks for sending the gifts to my house personally.
and many many thanks to the others who i've not been able to receive the gifts from u guys personally till now.
i'm so sorry about that ;X
but its a really BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE!
thanks for the concerns and well wishes.
having to text me or call me every morning or recess to check on me :)
thanks to the 200 people who wished me on facebook
thanks to the 40 people who text me
its really great to have you guys around me! ;DDDDD
i should be back to school on monday i guess.
i miss school so much and of course you guys!!!
hope today's 2e3`08 match with 2e2`08 will be a success for 2e3!
2e3`08 jiayou!! so sad that i didn't go for both the matches.
Best of luck! ;D

so sad...

2010-07-21T11:26:00.003+08:00

well, it just isn't an happy occasion i guess.
having to forget a maths tys ytd.
go home take. go lrt. then outside school fall
bleed like hell. but could resist the pain.
placed antiseptic and i cried like wth.
so sad...
then after school O level listening comprehension
i feel like a disabled cannot walk at all.
everyone keep turning back.
so unlucky. xin fei also fell outside school
how lucky are we. both on right leg. just that mine is really serious.
used antiseptic ytd night again. freak the pain. i cried like hell once again.
and its so sad i cannot go to school
1st:
racial harmony day celebration. can't celebrate with class.
so unlucky always miss the big events with the class =[
2nd:
my leg hurts like hell. i cannot walk at all. and it is like swollen. ='[
3rd:
its my birthday today. and there i am alone at home. cannot move at all. cannot walk also.
i feel so awful right here. i wonder what everyone planned today. now i can't anticipate it anymore. so sad... so awful...

it just feels awful today. everything seems to be the opposite way.
if only i could foresee. then i would have escaped everything.
if not for a maths tys. maybe i wouldn't have ended up like this.
but what i found it funny was. normally i would have held my phone and wallet in my hand.
bt ytd i kept my phone in my bag and then wallet in pocket.
even passed my plastic bag to teresa.
and then its like getting ready to fall flat on four. and ya. flat on four.
the pain was excruciating. can't describe.

hais.. so sad.. what is this sweet sixteen man. not sweeet at all.

Aesthetic Night

2010-07-17T22:04:00.001+08:00

Aesthetic Night (16th july)

day out with twinnie

2010-07-09T22:11:00.005+08:00

Day out with twin ;DDDDD (Aricia)

mango, peach frozen yogurt ;D

hahas my eyes so small

me, aricia

books from borders

cha soba @ sakae sushi ;D

events

2010-07-04T12:21:00.002+08:00

2th july:
watched toy story 3 with charmaine, jordan(char's bro), belle,teresa, dwayne, porntep
went doby ghautso lucky we won 2 tickets to australia sea world resort
after movie didn't go dinner with family walked an hour to find a place to eat< doby ghaut xin wang hk cafe for dinner with belle, porntep and dwyane. finally used my $20 voucher ;DDDDD
treated them with that $20 and then we paid the rest of each of the left amount
my first time going out till so late like 10 plus
went home. reached at 1040 smth like tt.
used com till 1. at first all say want twitter in the end watch soccer so i went to sleep. belle too.
lols

3rd july:
study chinese oral.
but didn't go well.

6th july:
chinese o level

7th july
gonna meet twinnie; aricia
i need to clear my borders card $50
before it expires

let me see... i
cleared starbucks vocher $10 when i was out with joce and char
cleared $20 capital land voucher for dinner with porn, belle, dwayne
gonna clear borders card $50
gonna clear $10 GV movie voucher
gonna clear $10 cotton on card
gonna clear $20 some jap bookstore

ok.. tt shall be all for now =]

wilbur's 14th birthday

2010-06-28T19:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 14th BROTHER BEAR!!! (WILBUR) ;DDDD

siblings <33333 ;DDD

Smiles...

2010-06-19T12:16:00.010+08:00

SMILES

this week's awesome... it's down to some serious studying

18th June: Dinner at pizza hut

17th June:
Porntep's bday happy sweet 18th. It was awesome ;D

16th June:
Charmaine's bday happy sweet 16th. It was awesome! ;D

Don't let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present. -Linnea Sinclair

Don't let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present. -Linnea Sinclair

out like everyday??

2010-06-14T22:04:00.003+08:00

12th june
alright yeah went out to meet joce, vinni, ange, li xuan in the morning
yeah went starbucks
did some crazy stuff lols
for some people...
hahahas
then around afternoon left them on their own
to meet dwayne and teresa
went place 1 to find something
didn't manage to find
so changed place 2 shop 1 yeah managed to get 1 thing there
then went shop 2 to get another thing.
tiring as we walked whole day.
i'm being random now but ya..
going out with you guys made me run out of clothes to wear lol

13th june
aunt came over
had kfc for lunch
teresa came over to my house
then after that went cp to meet belle. then she went kfc to eat then waited for dwayne
belle called vudh like lols. he rushed over to cp
then did some stuffs and then headed to my house
crapped... they sang old songs for some random moments idk why..
laughed like crazy..
did somethings for someone.
then they went home.
teresa stayed on till almost 9.
had dinner at my house.
hahas 2nd time having a meal at my house. how's my mum's cooking? lols

14th june
went out around 11 plus to cp today.
met vinni, joce, ange. hahas
yeah with them for sometime then went back home.
yeah then stayed at home and did smth..
for someone..

shall go off now.. to sleep and study tmr!!! JIAYOU!

choir camp

2010-06-14T21:15:00.006+08:00

7th jine to 9th june 2010
alright i know i'm late at blogging choir camp stuff but ya.. didn't really wanna blog much to save time. shall make it short and sweet. picture says it all...

choir camp day 1 part 1
choir camp day 1 part 2
choir camp day 2
choir camp day 3
choir camp break camp lunch

pics tt are not on the net...

day 1

thanks to group 1 for the food =P

washing chickens

the amount of things we have to bring back to school.

day 3

disgusting drink. ( apple, orange, mango, lime, coffee... yucks) sec 4's idea on me =[ and i forced yvonne to drink half hehe share my drink my junior lols

choir camp tmr

2010-06-06T12:59:00.001+08:00

CHOIR camp tmr!!! :DDDD excited! lols
gonna bring along ss and geo stuff. XD
consultations during camp. XDDDDD
i'm sure i'm gonna have a great camp!
everything shall go on smoothly!
GOOD LUCK JUNIORS IN RUNNING THE CAMP!

STUDY WITH JOCE & CHAR

2010-06-06T11:31:00.006+08:00

joce, char, me

char, me, joce

char and joce

char's awesome lol

argh can't see my eyes

char, me

me, joce

char, me

roses!!! :DDD th thorns are really sharp.

but gave them to ghee wei when we saw him and shi ying

caramel, mocha

alright went plaza sing to study with Joce and Char. :D ate mac for lunch
then walked around.
then went starbucks.
used voucher to treat them to starbucks. :D
caramel and mocha
hahas i still love the caramel while th two of them like th mocha
its awesome hahas XD
morning saw apple and poh im as well as amos.
lols something extremely funny. we saw someone like mr tan ck.
hahas

study before O lvel chinese pic

2010-06-06T11:24:00.006+08:00

WELL, I HOPE ALLS WELL! :DD

**** KATONG LASKA HERE I COME!!! ****

whole of this week

2010-05-28T17:51:00.002+08:00

Alright!! Chinese intensive this week and its awesome.
can u believe it. studying chinese the whole day!
even after school stayed back to study chinese too!
alright but there was a really stupid thing after school
that was chem pre-prelim obviously i didn't even prepare
but flipped through the book at least to give me confidence- maybe for the sake of flipping
on the very day itself everyone was like how to do??
lols even our teacher was laughing at us.
at the end of this stupid test stuck in the middle of this chinese intensive lies chemistry
our teacher said anyway just treat it as paper can see u guys didn't prepare
lols obviously! if not she wouldn't have even let me go to the toilet in the middle of this test.
its retarded lols
chinese intensive i concentrated! :DD but then i still lack confidence
well, next thing, tuesday having prelim for chem and phy SPA gosh, i'm afraid of it esp chem. i'm gonna work doubly hard for my basics.
:DDDD JIAYOU EVERYONE!
next!!
PRIDE AWARD!! :DD i was shocked! i was making lots of noise on friday morning and talking to friends.
and then suddenly, Mr Lim came and then Grace! stand up. then i'm like oh gosh. what? he said, go over there and sit down. huh? ok.
then i went over and sat down. then l8r i got to know its pride award.
i started laughing at myself for tt stupid actions-reactions of mine.
HAHAHA! a really great laugh.
after morning assembly back to chinese intensive. there srsly is smth wrong with our maths teacher.
i how wish ms tan was there instead. he's kind of crazy. every little thing also wanna pick on. wth. test halfway he shouted and gave me a shock. wth! i jumped up from my seat. and ppl who saw started laughing lols. even i laughed. what a joke.
he's really weird i'd tell u.
alright tmr gonna wake up early and study with dwayne, teresa, belle, vudh, porn, joce, vinn, char :DDD
intensive chinese all the way!!! JIAYOU PEEPS!

don't try

2010-05-23T12:13:00.000+08:00

Don’t try to understand everything, because sometimes it is not meant to be understood, but to be accepted.

sports day ;D

2010-05-22T15:21:00.006+08:00

I LOVE 4E2 TO THE MAX!!!
CONGRATS TO 4E2 for winning 3rd!!! :DD works hard for class award yeah!!
CONGRATS TO THOSE WHO WON THE MEDALS.
AND FOR JIA HAO, GET WELL SOON; TAKE CARE!

teresa and i

charmaine, amelyn and i

wenqi, li xuan and i

lixuan and i

yujie and i

videos of runners

yi ling 100m

jia xian 100m

melissa 400m

chern tiong 400m

4 x 100m girls ( jolene, chermaine, melissa, yi ling)

4 x 100m boys (zechery, vudh, jia hao, chern tiong)

hahas i'm glad that i managed to go sports day this yeah! although sick, still enjoyed myself a lot. though kinda sad can't run. but it's over and they won so i'm happy for them :D

seriously tired...

2010-05-20T16:33:00.004+08:00

alright, into some serious blogging
sick... still sick. its been more than a week since last monday.
i was feeling really sad yesterday for the fact that i couldn't run.
no sports at all. =[ had MC for today and tmr.
but i'm going for it. but not playing D: so sad...
last year was worse. 1 week MC turned out to be 9 days of holiday because of sat and sun
it was really awful. for the fact that MC　ｌａｓｔ　ｏｎ　ｆｒｉｄａｙ！！！　
ｃａｎ　ｙｏｕ　ｅｖｅｎ　ｂｅｌｉｅｖｅ　ｉｔ？　ｂｕｔ　ｎｅｖｅｒ　ｍｉｎｄ．
ａｌｌ　ｔｈａｔ　ｉ　ｃａｎ　ｄｏ　ｔｍｒ　ｉｓ　ｔｏ　ｓｕｐｐｏｒｔ　ｔｈｅｍ．　ｌｏｌｓ　ｃａｎ＇ｔ　ｓｈｏｕｔ　ａｔ　ａｌｌ　ｔｏｏ．
ｓｏ　ｃｒａｐｐｙ．　ｌｏｌｓ．
ｓｈｌｄ　ｉ　ｇｏ　ｆｏｒ　ｔｍｒ　ｔｒｅｅ　ｔｏｐ　ｗａｌｋ？　ｕｒｇｅ　ｔｏ　ｇｏ　ｂｕｔ　ｔｈｅｎ　ｃａｎ　ｉ　ｔａｋｅ　ｉｔ　ｓｉｎｃｅ　ｉ＇ｍ　ｓｉｃｋ？
ｏｒ　ｓｈｌｄ　ｉ　ｇｏ　ｏｕｔ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｆｒｉｅｎｄｓ？　ｎｅｉｔｈｅｒ？　ｌｏｌｓ　ｉｄｋ．　
ｇｏｔｔａ　ｓｅｅ　ｈｏｗ　ｉ　ａｍ　ｔｍｒ．　ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｈｏｐｅ　ｔｔ　ｉ　ｃａｎ　ｇｏ．
ａｒｇｈ．．　ｓｅｅ　ｈｏｗ．　ｌｏｌｓ　
ｓｏ　ｆｉｃｋｌｅ－ｍｉｎｄｅｄ　ｉ　ａｍ．
ｌｏｌｓ　ｗｈｙ　ｄｏｅｓ　ｍｙ　ＭＣ　ａｌｗａｙｓ　ｅｎｄ　ｏｎ　ｆｒｉｄａｙ？？

tired of everything

2010-05-20T15:24:00.002+08:00

答案不只一个
---黄韵玲---
词:姚若龙曲:黄韵玲
逃避不一定躲得过
面对不一定最难受
孤单不一定不快乐
得到不一定就永久
失去不一定不再有
转身不一定是软弱
别急着说自己别无选择
别以为世上只有对和错
许多事的答案都不只一个
所以我们永远有路可以走
找个理由难过也一定能找到快乐
懂得放心的人找到轻松
懂得遗忘的人找到自由
懂得开怀的人找到朋友
逃避不一定躲得过
面对不一定最难受
孤单不一定不快乐
得到不一定就永久
失去不一定不再有
转身不一定是软弱
别急着说自己别无选择
别急着说自己别无选择
别以为世上只有对和错
许多事的答案都不只一个
所以我们永远有路可以走
找个理由难过也一定能找到快乐
懂得放心的人找到轻松
懂得遗忘的人找到自由
懂得开怀的人找到朋友
许多事的答案都不只一个
所以我们永远有路可以走
找个理由难过也一定能找到快乐
懂得放心的人找到轻松
懂得遗忘的人找到自由
懂得开怀的人找到朋友

好眼淚壞眼淚
徐若瑄
我曾认真试爱着一个人
他给我幸福的可能
我等我问未来何时发生
他只是给我一个吻

快乐我哭是因为你的手
曾答应带我向前走
难过我哭是因为我的手
找不到你说的以后
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过在你不再爱我了以后
像坏的眼泪慢慢流

快乐我哭是因为我付出
得到你温柔的答覆
难过我哭是因为我认输
你的心永远留不住

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流

有好的笑容陪着我

sick... but i see the strong friendship and love :D

2010-05-15T21:56:00.004+08:00

hi people.. its been a long time since i really post.
yeah, here i wanna tell everyone thank you!!! :DDD
friday was simply awesome. seriously
even though it didn't start with a good note at all but i really ended with a great one!
friends, i really got to thank you for helping me.
we've had so much fun through so much nonsense. hahahas
focus was awesome.. lols
even though i threw up =[
hahas... will remember tt day alright.
thanks for helping me clean up the place. and so sorry for troubling u guys.
wasn't exactly well that day.
hahas.. well, we've cleaned up lots of dirty stuff tt day i guess.. hahas i still find it hilarious!
hahas joke..
well, let me share what happened with ppl reading my blog.
1st after school slacked.. then evening went to eat dinner with charmaine, teresa, porntep, wenqi, bohan
then l8r went back school for focus.
esther joined us.
then found mrs ali
then sat down at round table..
charmaine cleared bird shit...
then esther tripped over the table
then after a while, porntep tripped over the table
then esther went to buy milk from the vending machine.
strawberry milk...
came out... lizard shit. then she took and wash..
then we laugh like crazy..
she sold it to an qi. lols
then not for long, i cough 2 times, just two times, i vomited. lols
just so sudden, and everyone was still laughing at esther's strawberry milk
so i went to wash up, esther went with me.
then l8r charmaine, esther and porntep helped to mop the floor. thanks guys!
thanks belle, dwayne, yi feng, renyi, poh im for the concern. hahahas words spread fast..
thanks to ying yun, ying ruey, yu rong and co. for accompanying me while the others helped me clear up.
teresa came into toilet and helped me together with wenqi and yingyun. megan came to see if i was alright too.
everyone was asking what happened to me. hahas there goes charmaine's joke about what happened again.... hahas
esther came back to toilet with the mop lols she wanted to put it back without washing lols lols
but after that she did wash it.
yeah soon, i called mum to wait for me at compass. so i went to the doctor. lols having fever 38.6 lols joke... i didn't feel a thing at all.
thanks to fsj, jj and others who waited for me when we left school for home. sorry for troubling u guys. and really thanks alot.
yeah like what esther said, that's what friends are for. thanks E2!!! i love u guys. always there for me when in need.
thanks vinni and jocelyn for comforting me in the morning.. :DDD love you guys! you're awesome!
yeah and what jj said, it feels heartening to have bro(friends) around u when you're feeling down,(sick) :DDDD
thanks people, sorry for getting u guys worried hahas.
your help and concerns are greatly appreciated...

speech day pics

2010-05-08T20:41:00.001+08:00

song..

2010-04-18T17:02:00.002+08:00

纪佳松&潘玮柏 - 同一个遗憾

作词:李念和纪佳松作曲:纪佳i

剩下我们坐在岸边看着她越走越远
白色星星迎着海面沙滩好远
而他的心去了哪里我们都无能为力
是谁的手能牵他回来

Does she know? Don’t think so.
爱上了同一个遗憾恍然明白
那时候为何要对彼此为难
Tell me she know, i don’t think so.
我们都不属於她的爱
不能重来的伤害我们都学会了释怀

两个朋友一个最爱不可能有的未来
只是结局却让我们如此意外 YEAH~
她的决定终於坦白开了玩笑的安排
怪谁的错我们都失败

Does she know? Don’t think so.
爱上了同一个遗憾恍然明白
那时候为何要对彼此为难
Tell me she know, i don’t thank so.
我们都不属於她的爱
不能重来的伤害而我们学会了释怀

Does she know? Don’t think so.
爱上了同一个遗憾恍然明白
那时候为何要对彼此为难
Tell me she know, i don’t think so.
我们都不属於她的爱
不能重来的伤害而我们学会了释怀

小宇 - 终于说出口
Xiao Yu - Zhong Yu Shuo Chu Kuo
Xiao Yu - Finally said it out loud

你终于说出口
ni zhong yu shuo chu kou
You finally said it out loud
其实你早就已经不爱我
qi shi ni zao jiu yi jing bu ai wo
Actually, you already don't love me anymore
为什么要低著头
wei shen mo yao di zhe tou
Why do you bow your head
你知道这玩笑骗不倒我
ni zhi dao zhe wan xiao pian bu dao wo
You know this joke can't fool me
可是这不是玩笑
ke shi zhe bu shi wan xiao
However, this isn't a joke
是要逃避你离开我的理由
shi yao tao bi ni li kai wo de li you
It is the evading of the reason why you left me

我还能做什么你已经不爱我
wo hai neng zuo shen mo ni yi jing bu ai wo
What else can I do, You don't love me anymore
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
wo yi zhi dou ai a ni nan dao zhe huan bu gou
I've always loved you, Is that not enough
我还要做什么你才不离开我
wo hai yao zuo shen mo ni cai bu li kai wo
What more can I do, So that you won't leave me
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
wo zhi dao ni yi wu xin zai ji xu kan zhe wo
I know that you have no intention to continue looking at me
一心想离开我
yi xin xiang li kai wo
Wholeheartedly wanting to leave me

我终于也说出口
wo zhong yu ye shuo chu kou
I've finally said it out loud
其实很爱你但从没认真说过
qi shi hen ai ni dan cong mei ren zhen shuo guo
Actually I really love you, but never seriously said so
或许是我的错
huo xu shi wo de cuo
Maybe it's my fault
多在乎你却只放在心中
duo zai hu ni que zhi fang zai xin zhong
Care about you a lot, but only keeping it in my heart
不要问我为什么
bu yao wen wo wei shen mo
Don't ask me why
因为爱你这就是我的理由
yin wei ai ni zhe jiu shi wo de li you
Because I love you, that is my reason

我还能做什么你已经不爱我
wo hai neng zuo shen mo ni yi jing bu ai wo
What else can I do, You don't love me anymore
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
wo yi zhi dou ai a ni nan dao zhe huan bu gou
I've always loved you, Is that not enough
我还要做什么你才不离开我
wo hai yao zuo shen mo ni cai bu li kai wo
What more can I do, So that you won't leave me
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
wo zhi dao ni yi wu xin zai ji xu kan zhe wo
I know that you have no intention to continue looking at me

没什么需要被原谅
mei shen mo xu yao bei yuan liang
Nothing really that needs to be forgiven
我笑得有些牵强
wo xiao de you xie qian qiang
My smile might seem a little forced
你知道我总是能够假装不难过
ni zhi dao wo zong shi neng gou jia zhuang bu nan guo
As you know, I can always pretend not to be suffering
Oh 不想看你那么累
OH bu xiang kan ni na mo lei
Oh Don't want to see you so tired
多希望再给我机会
duo xi wang zai gei wo ji hui
Wishing to give me one more opportunity
颤抖著我的手
chan dou zhe wo de shou
Quivering, holding my hand
握住的只是风
wo zhu de zhi shi feng
Holding onto what is only wind

我还能做什么你已经不爱我
wo hai neng zuo shen mo ni yi jing bu ai wo
What else can I do, You don't love me anymore
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
wo yi zhi dou ai a ni nan dao zhe huan bu gou
I've always loved you, Is that not enough
我还要做什么你才不离开我
wo hai yao zuo shen mo ni cai bu li kai wo
What more can I do, So that you won't leave me
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
wo zhi dao ni yi wu xin zai ji xu kan zhe wo
I know that you have no intention to continue looking at me
一心想离开我
yi xin xiang li kai wo
Wholeheartedly wanting to leave me

she painted on a smile, erased all her tears & learnt how to pretend..

prelim...;speech day; IFD

2010-04-17T22:39:00.004+08:00

12 more day to prelim =[

speech day ytd :DDD was awesome.. though really tired..
went IFD project at skcc today with group- jia xian, jun jie, annabelle, amanda, yu jie. soo jun came to help.
damn fun! e2!!! lols
everything also can laugh about lols.
everyone is like i treat u i treat u lols
had mac and sparkling apple juice
hahas made bull.. its very nice :D
then went to check out class tee price...
went home... yeahh.. and ya as usual.. stupid sense of someone following me again.. yeah indeed.
a guy in his 30-40 with shades kept looking at me. then i felt smth wrong so i looked at him.. then after sometime i realised he have been looking at me.. i felt really weird.
i chose to ignore... alighted at doby ghaut.. to change train to novena
he seem to know i want to alight there or maybe because of my gesture..
i made him alright 1st by standing really still at the back.. he got off.. then i got off
then later, when i was walking at the back, he kept turning back and like made it not so obvious that he is looking at me.. then l8r he like walked really slow wanting to walk behind..
lols know what i did?? i walked to the crowded area.. and he can't see me because there is too many ppl and they are all damn tall. lols quickly alighted and hurried out.. phew..
seriously man.. what's with this problem this few weeks??
and pls la stupid lei. wear a shade where by i can see inside. no brain. and somemore look from the side i can see yr eyes lor.. totally can't stand it man.
i nearly wanted to give that guy a slap in the face man. dunno what the heck he looking at and following me for what.
i seriously need to be vigilant.. never know who will be the next person following me..